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I decided I'd post my xanga entry in here since I don't really update in this too much..So Here it is:
Happy Halloween everyone!
Well I'm just trying to pass the time, cleaning, waiting for Eric to call. He better get to call me. If he doesn't, then I know he didn't get his pass because he or other soldiers were screwin around. I'm pretty sure he'll be able to call though. I hope. I neeeed to talk to him. His phone calls are the best. Weird how we take things for granted like a simple phone call from the ones we love and then when they are gone and unable to talk every single day like your used to, you realize how special a phone call really is. :)
Today I realized that sometimes you've just got to let go. After Eri and I stopped being like best friends, I found myself being kind of 'motherly' towards my other close friends. Always being the ones they came to to get advice from, or what not, and now I don't want that title. I've realized that no matter how much advice you tell them, they are going to do whatever they want, and it's just up to you to lay low and let them learn lessons on their own, even if it is the hard way. So even though I have always tried to look out for my friends, and sometimes that came off wrong to them, I'm going to stop saying how I feel on their actions and just let them do whatever. I just really like living away now. That may sound bad, but I just feel...free. And able to stay out of all the drama. Sometimes the people you think that are closest to you, once you really sit down and take a look at it, you realize they know not too much about you at all. The only people who really know me are Eric and my family to be honest. Because they take the time to. If my other closest friends had any interest in what was going on with me, they'd ask, or call, or care when I tell them a story. Of course everytime I mention this, I get yelled at and say it's my fault for not opening up, but I guess what they don't realize is that I TRY. It gets tiring after a while. Oh well, it's cool. I have my online journal. lol. They can learn about me here.
Well last night was tons of fun. We went to Graham's all dressed up but there wasn't too many people our age there so we left pretty early to go to our party. We weren't sure if it was going to be a costume party so we brought extra clothes in case. A few girls were dressed up there, but I just went in normal clothes. The party was soooo much fun though! We met tons of new people and I took lots of pics! I'll get them developed soon and post em. Our friend Kyle was all over me, and I had to keep reassuring him that he wasn't going to hook up with me. He's a really nice guy though, and I liked being there for him, but it was totally a friend thing. People are me kept saying, hook up with him, and I was like no, sorry I'm taken..very taken. But it was fun. Then after a few beers some of the girls we just met had us come dance with them. It was really fun. I didn't drink much at all because I had to sober up and drive home. So once I felt just a little buzz, I stopped. By the time we left, I was totally sober and so it was all ok. Tonight, we are going to another Halloween party! Should be fun. This time, I'll go in my costume. :)
Well I'm gonna go do some more cleaning, and jump in the shower, and keep my phone attached to my hip until he calls. Talk to ya'll later! *muah*
Happy Halloween everyone!
Well I'm just trying to pass the time, cleaning, waiting for Eric to call. He better get to call me. If he doesn't, then I know he didn't get his pass because he or other soldiers were screwin around. I'm pretty sure he'll be able to call though. I hope. I neeeed to talk to him. His phone calls are the best. Weird how we take things for granted like a simple phone call from the ones we love and then when they are gone and unable to talk every single day like your used to, you realize how special a phone call really is. :)
Today I realized that sometimes you've just got to let go. After Eri and I stopped being like best friends, I found myself being kind of 'motherly' towards my other close friends. Always being the ones they came to to get advice from, or what not, and now I don't want that title. I've realized that no matter how much advice you tell them, they are going to do whatever they want, and it's just up to you to lay low and let them learn lessons on their own, even if it is the hard way. So even though I have always tried to look out for my friends, and sometimes that came off wrong to them, I'm going to stop saying how I feel on their actions and just let them do whatever. I just really like living away now. That may sound bad, but I just feel...free. And able to stay out of all the drama. Sometimes the people you think that are closest to you, once you really sit down and take a look at it, you realize they know not too much about you at all. The only people who really know me are Eric and my family to be honest. Because they take the time to. If my other closest friends had any interest in what was going on with me, they'd ask, or call, or care when I tell them a story. Of course everytime I mention this, I get yelled at and say it's my fault for not opening up, but I guess what they don't realize is that I TRY. It gets tiring after a while. Oh well, it's cool. I have my online journal. lol. They can learn about me here.
Well last night was tons of fun. We went to Graham's all dressed up but there wasn't too many people our age there so we left pretty early to go to our party. We weren't sure if it was going to be a costume party so we brought extra clothes in case. A few girls were dressed up there, but I just went in normal clothes. The party was soooo much fun though! We met tons of new people and I took lots of pics! I'll get them developed soon and post em. Our friend Kyle was all over me, and I had to keep reassuring him that he wasn't going to hook up with me. He's a really nice guy though, and I liked being there for him, but it was totally a friend thing. People are me kept saying, hook up with him, and I was like no, sorry I'm taken..very taken. But it was fun. Then after a few beers some of the girls we just met had us come dance with them. It was really fun. I didn't drink much at all because I had to sober up and drive home. So once I felt just a little buzz, I stopped. By the time we left, I was totally sober and so it was all ok. Tonight, we are going to another Halloween party! Should be fun. This time, I'll go in my costume. :)
Well I'm gonna go do some more cleaning, and jump in the shower, and keep my phone attached to my hip until he calls. Talk to ya'll later! *muah*