Boys
Is it weird to not understand certain ways you feel? Well there's alot about myself i dont understand...like boys ahhh i know most gurls are always confused about this subject but yeah i am too and i hate it. I hate the way i always want a boyfriend but when it comes down to it i dont go through with it...i mean i want a boyfriend at times but most of the time i just want to like someone that likes me back so things dont get complicated and going out is so risky i mean it hardly ever works out then you end up hating someone you once loved as a friend before you went out or if you did accually fall in love you have your heart broken. I mean whats the problem with just being friends that like each other i like that kind of a relationship much better then boyfriend/girlfriend. But then i also think maybe i just havnt found that one person i like alot to have a good relationship with...i know one person i would love to be with but its simply just not possible and i hate that as well. So as for people always telling me to date a certain person its just not gonna happen with me unless i'm truly feeling a connection. Bye the way i dont just hate boys i hate myself for not liking the "right" boys because i always like the people i cant have or the people that dont want me. XoXo Brittany