Feb 02, 2004 18:08
hey gurl:
Yeah things have been really rough lately...and i know its alot of my fault because i'm the one who has a problem with you and phil okay so here's how i feel about it... i feel that when you like phil he puts a negetive attitude on you, your always worried about you and him and it makes you depressed. And i feel like i dont want to bother you with any of my problems not because i feel you dont care but because i feel your to preocupied with phil. I dont like this feeling because i've been able to tell you things i've never told anyone before you were always my shoulder to cry on and i was yours as well. And i dont care that you and phil are together its just that he's been hurt by a gurl he loved so much and now that isnt what he wants he just wants a "friends with benifis" and i dont want to see you get your heart broken again this is not what you need. I guess i also will always have feelings for phil but not the way you do its different, and i dont like him at all anymore because i dont like the way he treats me. But then when i feel like this i feel horible because i liked your brother and i obviously still do. So in a way we both break the rules of guys and bet friends. I also feel like the fun has just been ripped away from our friendship we dont joke and play around anymore we just sit nd say gosh i ate my life boo hoo i'm so sick of being depressed. Maybe we both need to just get over it and realize we both have great lives and we have no reason to be all sad... stacey i love you with all my heart and i'll alway be there for you no matter what happens but we've dug our selfs in a whole and we need to get out of it bcause its not right that we have so much anger toward each other. Well i hope you understand my feelings more now...XoXo Brittany