sadness.
I miss Erika. We always said that boyfriends would come and go, but best friends are forever and we would grow old together. I cared about her more than anything, and she just threw our friendship away like it meant nothing. She has sent me a couple text messages, but hasn't contacted me beyond that so I am confused. I haven't talked to her since September. I just want to cry and cry and cry. I want things to get better between us. I want things to be like they used to be, but I guess they can't ever be. I want her back. So maybe we'll never be able to do the things we used to....driving on a whim in the middle of a summer night with music blasting, smoking the whole way. I want to hold on to my youth, but I have a daughter now and I can't....I am depressed. I'm just depressed and lonely and I miss her. I wonder if she misses me.