Long time, no write.
Okay, so by this time nobody reads this anymore, but I decided to update for my own amusement. Today was a very boring day. A fat day, definitely. I'm feeling very fat. I was on this strict diet and exercise regimen and lost a lot of weight, and now I've kind of given it up and I feel disappointed in myself because I was doing so well. It's just so much work and I am the laziest person I know. Sigh. So anyway, Stephen and I went to Target and Gamestop today. We also went to Subway and got subs, but Stephen doesn't like roast beef so he had to take it off of his. I had double meat on the sub and then I put Stephen's roast beef on it, and I have to say...there was too much meat. I know, it seems impossible, but it's true. This is interesting stuff, eh? What else is there to say....hm. I have a lot of stuff I want to get done, but for right now I can't do anything about it. I'm on the verge of moving, but not until Stephen gets transferred so for right now I'm stuck in limbo...going to school, but not really giving a shit because I know I'm quitting soon. I'm going to try to go back in Sanford once we get settled in a place of our own, which I am really excited about. I've got so much stuff saved up for when I move out...plates, cups, pots, pans, knives, etc. and I'm just ready to get out of here and go! It's going to be quite a daunting task though to move out of this room because it's filled to the brink with useless shit and I'm not good at getting rid of things. It seems at this point I'm stuck in limbo with everything in life. I guess it comes with the age I'm at...almost 20. Time to grow up. I don't know where I'll be living or what I'll be doing for a job or if any of the shittiest shit in my life will be sorted out or not. Everything's up in the air, and each day I'm just going through the motions, which I hate. Just living day to day....I hate that, I need a purpose and I want to feel as if all my goals are within reach, but it's just not close enough to tell. It seems so far away. AHHH!! It's like I have cabin fever...I want to get out there and live my life, even though sometimes I feel like I'm not ready but I feel in my heart that it's time for me to be shoved out into the real world and see if I can make it. I might struggle some, but I think I can do it. The prospect of it all is looming in front of me and honestly it's quite ominous and a little scary. That's how I can describe how I feel about it...very scared, but very excited. Well, I guess I could go on and on about whatever but it's gone on long enough. Farewell!