It was Almost Always
How do you heal a broken heart? We may have dated once, that's true... But I thought we would be friends first and forever. I made the biggest mistake ever today. I called him. What did I expect from that phone call? What do I even know anymore? I mean, you get these people in your life once, but one mistake could take them away forever. God forgives, indeed, but obviously human beings are not capable of such things. Maybe he didn't love me as much as I thought. Maybe he never loved me. I'll never know at the rate I'm going. I wish I could just stop caring. Fuck him, what does he know about me anymore anyways?
The thing is, for the first time, I know what to do. The only thing is, I don't know if I can do that. Leave him forever, let him go, go our separate ways? It's sooo hard. He's never coming back? And he was the only person I ever pictured myself with in the future?
Well, I heard he's single and yet I doubt it. I hope he is regardless of what happens to me. But why? Why do I care so much what happens to him? Why does it matter to me?
Love is SO blind, it blocks the truth. I want to be the best person in the entire world just to feel his love again. Can we all say "PATHETIC"?! He obviously moved on a long, LOOOOONG time ago, so what is my malfunction? I thought I was over him years ago and yet now I'm not? Is it because his love was so much better than anyone else? I just feel like I'll never love again, not like that, not like I did with him. I could see my future in his eyes, and now he's gone, maybe for years, probably forever. Why do I hurt so much over something that isn't even a something it's a nothing? I feel confused, motivated, devastated, depressed, pissed off, tired, and heart-broken. WHY?!?! FOR WHAT REASON?!?! What's the FUCKING point? It won't bring him or me back to where we were.
We all change... Some for the better... Some for the worse... Which one's which?
But I did try... In fact I think I tried too hard. And now he's gone... And now I need to let him go...
The thing is, for the first time, I know what to do. The only thing is, I don't know if I can do that. Leave him forever, let him go, go our separate ways? It's sooo hard. He's never coming back? And he was the only person I ever pictured myself with in the future?
Well, I heard he's single and yet I doubt it. I hope he is regardless of what happens to me. But why? Why do I care so much what happens to him? Why does it matter to me?
Love is SO blind, it blocks the truth. I want to be the best person in the entire world just to feel his love again. Can we all say "PATHETIC"?! He obviously moved on a long, LOOOOONG time ago, so what is my malfunction? I thought I was over him years ago and yet now I'm not? Is it because his love was so much better than anyone else? I just feel like I'll never love again, not like that, not like I did with him. I could see my future in his eyes, and now he's gone, maybe for years, probably forever. Why do I hurt so much over something that isn't even a something it's a nothing? I feel confused, motivated, devastated, depressed, pissed off, tired, and heart-broken. WHY?!?! FOR WHAT REASON?!?! What's the FUCKING point? It won't bring him or me back to where we were.
We all change... Some for the better... Some for the worse... Which one's which?
But I did try... In fact I think I tried too hard. And now he's gone... And now I need to let him go...