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I don't know what to do or say. I want to cry and vomit and scream. It's wierd for me to really sit down and think about my faith. And as much as a feel it's still intact, whatever it may be. I'm mad. I'm mad that God could take away such a young, innocent, good human being. I cried all day yesterday and as soon as I got out of work today I started crying and haven't been able to stop. We were so close, we were all so close. This wasn't susposed to happen.
She was all of us. Her father said he didn't think she had that many friends. No matter how much joked with her we were all her friends. She had s many people that cared for her. I hope she knew that. Yesterday we all came together and did our best to honor memory. I hope we did. Today at work I was selling stars of hope with the tickets. I took all the blank ones and filled out her name on them. In a couple of days they'll be hung up and all the Alanna stars will be twirling above looking down.
I don't know how to move on it's all I can think about. I'm so afaird now. It could have been anyone of us. Just gone like that. no warning.
I'll miss you Alanna.
She was all of us. Her father said he didn't think she had that many friends. No matter how much joked with her we were all her friends. She had s many people that cared for her. I hope she knew that. Yesterday we all came together and did our best to honor memory. I hope we did. Today at work I was selling stars of hope with the tickets. I took all the blank ones and filled out her name on them. In a couple of days they'll be hung up and all the Alanna stars will be twirling above looking down.
I don't know how to move on it's all I can think about. I'm so afaird now. It could have been anyone of us. Just gone like that. no warning.
I'll miss you Alanna.