Stuck between that love/hate thing...
Why is it so easy to distance yourself from somone on the outside and have mad love for them on the inside? Do we do this to "protect" ourselves from feeling some sort of pain if things change? Isnt change suppose to be a good thing most of the time? I cant help but think that sometimes a daydream is so much safer than reality. @ least in a daydream you have some control over the situation. Getting lost in them makes things in the "real world" so much more bearable. I love being lost in my daydreams and yet I hate it just the same. I feel like sometimes Im missing out on things that could really bring me joy out of fear of it bringing me pain. But for now I think that the daydreaming is a much needed protection. Its just safer to daydream of you than to actually have you so close to me.