I need to be a nun
Isn't it funny how you always want something you can't have? I want my Josh back. We dated way back in 8th grade for 9 months until the beginning of freshman year and then some girl tried to break us up and told him I cheated on him. It worked. I miss the old him and sometimes I see the old Josh in the way he looks or something he says but he's changed and I have to remind myself of that. He's an asshole now and I wish I could help him realize he's not doing good things for himself. I just cried for awhile, more at what an idiot I've been thinking we could get back together. I'm not usually naive. One time we hang out and he talks to me and looks at me like he used to and we hold hands and I think he's still the same Josh. Now he says "he'd hold anyone's hand if he thought he would get a chance to sleep with em."
Excuse me for living. I should know by now not to trust any guys. I think it's in their nature to lie and fuck up the entire species of women. Lord help us all. Our estrogen may not be strong enough to fight them. I've only been able to count on one guy (one straight one anyway) and he's been my best friend since we were 11 and he lives in Michigan and I almost never get to see him. Ah Renn, I am forever your Stimpy. I think I"m gonna go cry some more or something. Go figure, I hardly ever cry and this is the second time this week. Im in the drum line with 9 boys and I am the only one who doesn't complain of pain or cold or work. Why am I now a wimp?
Excuse me for living. I should know by now not to trust any guys. I think it's in their nature to lie and fuck up the entire species of women. Lord help us all. Our estrogen may not be strong enough to fight them. I've only been able to count on one guy (one straight one anyway) and he's been my best friend since we were 11 and he lives in Michigan and I almost never get to see him. Ah Renn, I am forever your Stimpy. I think I"m gonna go cry some more or something. Go figure, I hardly ever cry and this is the second time this week. Im in the drum line with 9 boys and I am the only one who doesn't complain of pain or cold or work. Why am I now a wimp?