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I think its disrespectful to be all PDA and in the face of an ex. I was always careful not to do that with Chris.. and he vouches that I never did. And I’m proud that I was never that petty. I think that if you want a friendship with that ex you stand no shot because that is the most disrespectful thing you can do. I’m glad has a girl.. But I had to deal with it in my face for HOURS today. HOURS. He cant help I’m on desk when he signs in and out. He cant help that he’s dating a girl in my building. I did break up with him. All this I understand. I’m psyched that he found some one I really am. Its not like I’m alone either. Mine is a pain in the ass, but I never expect anything from him, and keep s surprising me lately. But I’m careful not to rub it in. That was my first public admission that I might be seeing someone. I don’t take him to Mark’s front lawn and cuddle with him. The world doesn’t revolve around me, but honestly.. you two options in that situation.. make an akward situation worse or better. They worse. My staff agrees, im not the crazy jealous ex psycho bitch. In fact im not jealous. I gave him up. He was free game and he deserves someone because he’s a homebody. He needs a girl. And Im glad he found one because honestly it makes me feel better cuz I know I hurt him and I’m sure she makes him feel better. But honestly.. hes fuckinga freshman in my house and rubbing it in my face. Im not ok with that. Its like he looked at me today and said “Fuck you april, I never want to be friends you pathetic, lonely, friendless, cunt” Yeah.. that about covers it. Im glad for him, but I feel like today he was so disrespectful. Im hurt and im mad and I don’t know about whether we can have a friendship. Chris and I are friends, but I was careful never to behave like that.. and remember Chris broke up with me, like broke up with make.