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Life can be so unpredictable at times. My life more specifically. Things keep happening and it seems like everything as I know it is spinning out of control. I have been 21 more like 2 months, and only got drunk once. I really don't understand I should be crazy out of control because I'm legal. But I don't. I believe its mostly because no one that I want to hang out with is the same age. I mean I do have a small handful of friends that are but they don't give me the time of day or are too busy with their crazy lifestyles. Besides being of age to get totally obliterated at a bar, I have gone through my share of ups and downs in the past month or so. Some idiotic bimbo of a girl was invited someplace she shouldn't have been and stole my cell phone, why no idea but yeah I'm still pissed. Then I find out my Aunt Sandy is sick, and then later that week she passed away, and finally the down of all downs was the heartbreak in the same week as everything else. I'm offically and adult by law but cried like a 12 year old girl. Things were horrific for a while but slowly I realized that things could get worse... how I had no clue but they could have been. But like some horrific storm off the coast of the ocean the one who broke my heart won me over again. The humor of this all is that we wanted this part of our relationship to be different but guess what... it's really not. We are the exact same after as before. One thing that I have learned is that sex really does complicate everything. I never used to believe it, but trust me it's true. I also learned something just this week, you never know who your true friends are until you move. I was there when Sara moved from her mom's house to her own apartment, I was the only friend. I was there again when Sara moved from her old apartment into a new one, and once again I was the only friend that helped. Nothing puts more perspective on your life then realizing the people you call friends really aren't all that much "friendly". I feel as if I'm growing up way too fast, that it has all happened in a tiny amount of time. I also feel old, I'm 21 and my parents are 50... thinking about them getting older scares me because who know how much longer they really have. I know its such a horrible thing to think about but its a fact of life. It's kind of a silly thing to think about. Know what else is silly that I'm so young but yet feel so old. I have more pains than anyone I know. I have messed up shoulders, a messed up back, my hips kill when it rains, and now both my wrists are like screw you on a daily basis to where I can't even hold a pencil. It probably doesn't help that I have been typing on a laptop for years and that I am constantly texting. I also do the same boring tasks at work day in and day out. Sometimes my days just run together into and at the end of the week I cannot remember for the life of me what excitement has happened. Sometimes I wish my life was much more exciting. Half the time just going out and hanging with friends is all that I need. I really wish that I had better things to write about then my boring typiacal. The one thing that I know most about is my life. It seems so useless and droll, needless to say it won't be that life changing in anyone's life if they read it.