so yeah
Tonight I feel, blah. I don't know why i'm just feeling like nothing matters, no one is there. i feel very alone and i'm scared i'm going into one of my states where i'm sad and i just don't know how to make it better. but i would like to thank those of you who i called and just from my hello they asked what was wrong, i <3 friends. i mean don't get me wrong, there are people i do enjoy being with and they make me happy i just don't know why i'm feeling like this. so i would like to apologize if i haven't been myself lately. On a side note today at work was crazy but i made good money and it was my last sunday before i leave. for all of you that are just dying to come visit me at ihop my last day before i leave is friday so i'm workin mon-fri feel free to come and eat pancakes :o) i won't lie, i sometimes feel better if i write down my feelings, but its just not working tonight, i'm still sitting in front of my computer saying why isn't it working. so if there is another retarded update tonight like this i'll apologize for anyone reading it but its just a way for me to try and make things better.
maybe i'll make a list of whats bothering me: (in no particular order)
-my daddy leaves tomorrow
-i'm leaving in 3 weeks
-i feel as though i'm getting farther away from some people instead of closer
-i want to see people but i don't know if they want to see me
-people talk crap about people they don't know about stuff that isn't true and stuff that is like 4 months old
-going to the doctor
ok i guess thats it for now...
maybe i'll make a list of whats bothering me: (in no particular order)
-my daddy leaves tomorrow
-i'm leaving in 3 weeks
-i feel as though i'm getting farther away from some people instead of closer
-i want to see people but i don't know if they want to see me
-people talk crap about people they don't know about stuff that isn't true and stuff that is like 4 months old
-going to the doctor
ok i guess thats it for now...