hmm yeah
so yeah i really don't know what's going on in my life i really don't. Things are happening soooo fast it amazes me. I'm a 16 year junior at attleboro high school! holy shit! i keep remembering the days at studley and brennan like yesterday. It really scares me. I'm going to collegee! I'm scared shitless. everyone always looked at me as the one that knew what she wanted in the future. And hey i really thought i knew what i wanted. I wanted to pursue something in theatre until i realized i sucked. I was soooo excited for drama festival this year but now i don't think im going to get in. So it makes me sad. My GPA isn't high enough to get into school cause i suck..i have an 82 GPA. Unlike ALL my friends that are wayyyy smarter than me. I'm scared and im finally admitting this. I AM SCARED! Then boys wow well i dont even want to talk about that. Every relationship i had in HS sucked. I was either cheated on or used or treated like i was some toy that could be thrown out and taken back whenever i needed it. It really makes me mad too when guys complain and go oh im never going to get a girl that is nice and sweet and would treat me wonderful and would love me for me and blahhh...and im like HELLO?!!!!!! wtf am i? i'm really not a slut or a drugie or a drinker or any of that. I dont want to drink or smoke or do any of that stuff anymore. I'm a good girl! why can't guys see that i'm the girl of their dreams. the girl that they keep complaining about wanting...hello im right here..not going anywhere. Idk life is crazy and at this note im going to stop
-Rachel
-Rachel