Long time no see.

[pinkcolordcandi]

I haven't wrote on here in a long time.
A lot has changed.
No one reads my post so I wont go into detail.
I am sad tonight.
There are reasons but again,
no ones reading so unless someone magically finds this... well yeah.

I'm not sure why I'm sad. Things are going well in my life
but I always have doubts. I doubt everyone and everything.
Its what happens when bad things happen. over and over and over.

I have a tumblr but I wanted to write somewhere private.
Where I can say and do whatever I feel because paper journals are to easy to find.

Ive been dieting again lately.
Still not at my goal weight.
Ill get there. Eventually.
binged tonight. So that means I gotta work my butt off.
Work this fat off.
cause thats what I am.
Fat.
faaaat.
Im fat.
boo.