okay lets get it out all in the open

[pinkchik0sem]

okay where to start......my last enrty was called kinda corny but sincere and it was very sincere yes it was a song but it expressed how i feel in a look beyond the surface way.....b/c i'm not the girl any of ya'll think i am besides like mychal and yea thats it....and i really wanna be myself but everytime i try someone shoots me down or wants to make fun of me....i use to be this fun loving happy go lucky loved everyone got along withe everyone NOT A WHORE OR STUPID but i came to jca and i was scared i didn't think people would like me and so i decided that if i pretended to be something then they weren't realy no liking me just somebody they thought was me but it hurt me a whole lot more in the end b/c i didn't think abou future i was a strictly here now kinda gal! but yea please give me a chance if you don't like me then so be it at least you tried and got to know me o know what you weren't liking i'm sorry to everyone and iloveyou shelly

p.s. i love the way i fall for guys i'll neve have a chance with!!!!!!!!