Crazy? or really sane??
Okay, so I opted not to take that teaching job. (There Al, I put the N in teaching....lol) I know, you might be saying to yourself, WTF is this girl thinking!?!? Believe me, I've analyzed this from all angles. Let me break it down for you.
1- I've never enjoyed teaching older children....In fact, I purposely have never subbed in Decatur for a class over the 3rd grade level.....for good reason, like fearing for my LIFE and my SANITY. When the kids are as big as me and full of ghetto attitude, rage, and a general disdain for white people, it's not a pretty picture. This little white girl doesn't want to put up with it. I want to enjoy going to work and teaching, not get jaded during my first year and end up hating it.
2- I have lots of teaching materials......for YOUNGER kids. I have absolutely nothing for 6th graders. It'd be like a doctor trying to operate without medical equipment.
3- The only other 6th grade teacher in the building I was assigned to just graduated from college! And from what I hear, she doesn't want to do 6th grade either, but she accepted her job 2 months ago. If it had been an experienced teacher, I would have felt more comfortable relying a bit on her for guidance, advice, and help.
4- I HAVE NO TIME. If I would have accepted the job, I would have been at a meeting all day today, had Thursday to prepare and MAYBE get into my classroom to organize. Friday is the day school technically starts, but I think that's an institute day with meetings all day long. I would have had the weekend to work. So, basically I'd be needing to get 2 months of buying things, cleaning, decorating, organizing, planning, copying, preparing, etc. done & ready in a matter of 3 days. IMPOSSIBLE......and not worth all the stress and anxiety.
Therefore, I am not a teacher.....yet. I don't think I there are many first year teachers out there who could do what I was expected to do. And if you can, then you're a better person than I am. So, I guess I don't get to complain about not having a job for a while, because now it really is my fault I don't have one. Oh well....in the long run, I think it's the best thing for me and for the kids that I would have taught....seriously, I wouldn't have done them any good being all stressed and unorganized.
I'll leave with this.................**Sigh of relief**