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After a long contemplation, and seeking the help of numerous friends I decided that it was time that I was single again. I may have broken a heat, not sure because he did not really react. Although, the fact that he has not been online, nor have I heard from him since Friday evening says something. It was for the best, and I feel guilty about it; however, it is time that I do what is right for me instead of sparing feelings.
I was a little disappointed in the senior party. I only stayed for like an hour then went out with some people and ended up at the pub. It was a very fun night and ended quite unexpectedly, but wonderful.
Yesterday I graduated college. I thought that I would be excited and happy, but honestly I am very scared, sad, and enotional about it. I feel like something has been ripped out of life and there is an empty hole there that I need fill with something. You don't realize as a freshmen how much it is going to suck to leave Alma. There is a sense of community there, that has been "home" for four years and now I have to leave it. I feel like I don't know where I belong anymore. It is scarey and unknown territory that I am not ready to venture into. I want to stay in Alma forever and keep everything the way that it is; however, thats not possible because everyone needs to go their own ways and make their lives wonderful. I guess I should just feel blessed that I have been touched by so many people and that I have learned alot about myself from these people. Now it is time that I take what I have learned about life and apply it to the world. It is now my turn to touch the world by teaching. This idea scares me, I am afraid that I will not do a good job as a teacher. Teaching is sooooooooooooo much harder than I ever thought that it was going to be, and because of that I am scared that I will screw something up. I have made it to this point, now I just need to have confidence in myself to be an awesome teacher.
Life is just soooo confussing and difficult at times, but it will make me stronger and a better person.
I was a little disappointed in the senior party. I only stayed for like an hour then went out with some people and ended up at the pub. It was a very fun night and ended quite unexpectedly, but wonderful.
Yesterday I graduated college. I thought that I would be excited and happy, but honestly I am very scared, sad, and enotional about it. I feel like something has been ripped out of life and there is an empty hole there that I need fill with something. You don't realize as a freshmen how much it is going to suck to leave Alma. There is a sense of community there, that has been "home" for four years and now I have to leave it. I feel like I don't know where I belong anymore. It is scarey and unknown territory that I am not ready to venture into. I want to stay in Alma forever and keep everything the way that it is; however, thats not possible because everyone needs to go their own ways and make their lives wonderful. I guess I should just feel blessed that I have been touched by so many people and that I have learned alot about myself from these people. Now it is time that I take what I have learned about life and apply it to the world. It is now my turn to touch the world by teaching. This idea scares me, I am afraid that I will not do a good job as a teacher. Teaching is sooooooooooooo much harder than I ever thought that it was going to be, and because of that I am scared that I will screw something up. I have made it to this point, now I just need to have confidence in myself to be an awesome teacher.
Life is just soooo confussing and difficult at times, but it will make me stronger and a better person.