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Well the kids don't eat, And the dog can't sleep, There's no escape from the music, In the whole damn street.
Is it friday yet? :D eeee.
Im in a serious lack of money, and it upsets me, which means i might have to get a real job. bleh.
My dad and i had a really long conversation today, its was really funny. Him and I were tlaking about Indian Princesses (a father daughter group that goes camping and stuff) cause he Saw Hannah Grouts Dad at the parent night cause shes in my german class. and him and I talked about it forever. Like when someone fell in the fire (i <3 you, dont hurt me), and when we were all a bunch of late people joining so we just made our own tribe instead of mingling. When i think back on it, some of my greatest friends were in that group. its crazy. I dont know, you might find this boring, but I loved it, it was nice to remember something happy about my childhood relationships.
All of my life it seems that Ive been fighting for a lost cause, friends who dont treat me like crap, and When I think Ive finally found it, it dawns on me, that its not really there. Ive always been the fifth wheel of a group, even when I was there long before others. Yes, Im a jealous person, but can you really blame me? can you blame me for being mentally abused by my "friends" in kindergarten and first grade. Can you blame me for Having friends in Fourth and Fifth grade that made a habbit out of abandoning me. Can you blame me for my best friend missing my 14th birthday party to go get high? And after all that Can you blame me for getting upset, or hurt when Im constantly told Im stupid or wrong, or ignored. I dont want to think its true, But can You blame me for doubting your intents? It scares the crap out of me. I dont know what to do . . .
I still wish it were friday, becuase, fridays are amazing, and we have a party to crash.
'Cause she's playing all night, And the music's all right, Mama's got a squeeze box, Daddy never sleeps at night.