but everyone knew her as nancy.
hello all.
waves of diffeent emotions come over me alot lately.
frusteration, sympathy, love, sorrow, anger, sadness.. i dont even think some of the emotions i feel have names.
i feel the need to self-improve lately. i need to better myself.
WARNING. GUSHY BOY STUFF BELOW. PROCEED WITH CAUTION.
SELINA. BACK. AWAY. NOW.
you texted me thursday and this morning at 6am. what the fuck. i'd finally start accepting you were out of my life.. and then you throw me these tiny threads of hope.. which a naive girl like me will interpret it to mean something.. but this time. i thought everything was gone. finished. i havent heard from you in a month.. i sent you a message you never responded to and you told me you would send me an email from camp.. not that i wanted one,or at all insinuated that i wanted anyting from you, i try to stay out of your way. i dont know what you are thinking most of the time.
when i saw your name on my phone - i was.. absolutely shocked. but id be lying if i said i wasnt thrilled. as much as your not good for me, i've never been so drawn to a person, i've never felt so comfertable. when im with you i feel like everythings okay - all my worries are just peanut butter. this is why it was so hard to let go of you. You are so interesting to me, i can't figure you out which is why i'm so intrigued. i've thought about what things might be like when you come home for good. will i still see you? will we still speak?? will i be with another?? will i be with another and secretly yearn for you.
of all these questions i ask myself, i try not to focus too much on it. what happens happens. to be honest i figured you'd come home.. and it would be like we never met.. and that still might happen.
you offered to give me your truck for 3 months, you talked about dating me as if there were no end in site.. you connected me to you.. you know my body..
you dissapeared.. what happens now?
you made a point to tell me this morning you were coming home in a few days for a week.. why?
did you want to see me?? did you think i wanted to see you? dont do me any favors. please.
i dont know what cards to play because im not fermiliar with this game.
if i see you, next week.. it will be even harder to let you go again. i don't know what to do.
our friend wants to take me out. which makes things even more complicated.. i entertained the idea to him, because he's a great person and i like him and might give it a shot.. but if i see him next week when you both are home, i will see you.. you will know we went out, and if i go out with you.. he will know.. what a position to be in..
we'll have to see how this unfolds.
i hate to say its still you. over him.
waves of diffeent emotions come over me alot lately.
frusteration, sympathy, love, sorrow, anger, sadness.. i dont even think some of the emotions i feel have names.
i feel the need to self-improve lately. i need to better myself.
WARNING. GUSHY BOY STUFF BELOW. PROCEED WITH CAUTION.
SELINA. BACK. AWAY. NOW.
you texted me thursday and this morning at 6am. what the fuck. i'd finally start accepting you were out of my life.. and then you throw me these tiny threads of hope.. which a naive girl like me will interpret it to mean something.. but this time. i thought everything was gone. finished. i havent heard from you in a month.. i sent you a message you never responded to and you told me you would send me an email from camp.. not that i wanted one,or at all insinuated that i wanted anyting from you, i try to stay out of your way. i dont know what you are thinking most of the time.
when i saw your name on my phone - i was.. absolutely shocked. but id be lying if i said i wasnt thrilled. as much as your not good for me, i've never been so drawn to a person, i've never felt so comfertable. when im with you i feel like everythings okay - all my worries are just peanut butter. this is why it was so hard to let go of you. You are so interesting to me, i can't figure you out which is why i'm so intrigued. i've thought about what things might be like when you come home for good. will i still see you? will we still speak?? will i be with another?? will i be with another and secretly yearn for you.
of all these questions i ask myself, i try not to focus too much on it. what happens happens. to be honest i figured you'd come home.. and it would be like we never met.. and that still might happen.
you offered to give me your truck for 3 months, you talked about dating me as if there were no end in site.. you connected me to you.. you know my body..
you dissapeared.. what happens now?
you made a point to tell me this morning you were coming home in a few days for a week.. why?
did you want to see me?? did you think i wanted to see you? dont do me any favors. please.
i dont know what cards to play because im not fermiliar with this game.
if i see you, next week.. it will be even harder to let you go again. i don't know what to do.
our friend wants to take me out. which makes things even more complicated.. i entertained the idea to him, because he's a great person and i like him and might give it a shot.. but if i see him next week when you both are home, i will see you.. you will know we went out, and if i go out with you.. he will know.. what a position to be in..
we'll have to see how this unfolds.
i hate to say its still you. over him.