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well hello there dearest lj.
so rob's been back for a little over two months now, and luckily we picked up just where we left off. Both still in love, and growing in our love every day. It's been great, I've even had a few days where it scares me how big a part of my life he is, because then i think "well what if something happened and we broke up" and the thought just tears me apart. That's what scares me, I've never let myself fall so far before, I'd love to think it will last and i have every intention of keeping and working towards this relationship, but realistically, some people fall in love and then fall out of it. I pray that doesn't happen. But I always tend to look at things in all sorts of different lights. If you never think of it as a possibility its just that much more of a blow when it happens.
We've been spending a lot of time together and many nights, and find myself missing him the nights i dont see him. but all this time spent together, things can get a bit testy but nothing of any major importance, but it's good we've at least reached that point where we're not scared say what's what.
on the other hand, in my life i feel stuck. I want to move, but i dont. I want to move to kelowna, i want to move to vancouver. i want a different job. it's crazy i just dont know where to direct my energy right now, and im quite literally morally stuck at my job. allison just left to live in vancouver and i want to leave, but how *convienent* that would be. I feel like theyd be screwed without me, and i feel like i couldn't do that to my co workers. we'll see where life lands me.
ciao!
so rob's been back for a little over two months now, and luckily we picked up just where we left off. Both still in love, and growing in our love every day. It's been great, I've even had a few days where it scares me how big a part of my life he is, because then i think "well what if something happened and we broke up" and the thought just tears me apart. That's what scares me, I've never let myself fall so far before, I'd love to think it will last and i have every intention of keeping and working towards this relationship, but realistically, some people fall in love and then fall out of it. I pray that doesn't happen. But I always tend to look at things in all sorts of different lights. If you never think of it as a possibility its just that much more of a blow when it happens.
We've been spending a lot of time together and many nights, and find myself missing him the nights i dont see him. but all this time spent together, things can get a bit testy but nothing of any major importance, but it's good we've at least reached that point where we're not scared say what's what.
on the other hand, in my life i feel stuck. I want to move, but i dont. I want to move to kelowna, i want to move to vancouver. i want a different job. it's crazy i just dont know where to direct my energy right now, and im quite literally morally stuck at my job. allison just left to live in vancouver and i want to leave, but how *convienent* that would be. I feel like theyd be screwed without me, and i feel like i couldn't do that to my co workers. we'll see where life lands me.
ciao!