Oct 03, 2005 22:50
well..geeze i write in this thing like once a month if that..alyssa is sleeping..todd has ben sick with a head cold and so alyssa is i think getting sick her nose is kinda stuffed up but iv been giving her medicine and the tyneol has knocked her out now..shes 5 weeks today..
well ok me n todd he started working last monday night he works midnights he thinks hes king cuz hes worked one week ooo man iv been working straight for 5 weeks and if u want to get literal iv been working for almost 5 years...he says im lazy LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL..ok heres my typical day..
get up about 8am feed alyssa then change her diaper then she takes a nap then i get lillian breakfast (cuz since alyssa has been born shes been waking up at 8am i think cuz todds mom kept lillian while i was in the hospital for alyssa and she was going to work),take a shower..get dressed..soak the bottles..by now alyssa is up so i feed her..i put a load of laundry in while i feed her..give alyssa a bath..put laundry in dryer..feed lillian..alyssa takes a nap..clean the bottles..fold the laundry (i usually have one load a day)..clean my room..feed alyssa change her..start making dinner..eat dinner..clean up dinner mess.. then clean whole house..then lillian goes to bed..by now its 10pm and usually if i have more laundry it takes longer or if alyssa is being fussy it takes longer so im in bed 11:30pm or 12am or if i need time by myself 1am..and now todd calls me at 2:30am for lunch talks to me till 3am then calls at 7:45am to open the door then i start all over again...but im lazy
but all he does is starting last monday is work amnd play on the computer
saturday i had my mom watch lillian so me n todd could have time by our selfs...todd stayed on the computer the whole time something weve been arguing about all week weel iv had enough now about this computer shit..he came into the bedroom at 2am try hugging me i got pissed i told him i didnt want him by me..i didnt want him touching me..or even in the same room as me cuz everytime he went in a room to do whatever i left and went into the oppisite room, his mom knew i was pissed cuz i tell her everything..well he starting crying ill do anything, i cant lose you ill throw the computer away balling and not to be cold hearteed but i didnt cry and i didnt feel like crying..iv been so nice this past week knowing hes sick and working..iv cleaned his work clothes every day..made him a big dinner everyday every time he said jump i did..then he asked me for a needle and i said find one urself that was friday i was getting pissed cuz he sleeps till 4-6pm then stays on the computer till he leaves at 10pm so where was my time, he comes here goes to bed at 8am then sleeps until 4-6pm then plays on the computer till 10pm..and im getting tired of it...then iv stopped bleeding well he didnt feel the pad so he wanted some..well saturday after our big arguemt we finally did do something and it hurt like nothing else well not as bad as alyssa lol..but i cryed and what did i get for it nothing and yesterday i did a favor with my mouth did i get anything then either..and last night instead of him getting on the oomputer he slept..we didnt go to bed till 5:30am sunday morning so we slept until 2:00pm so todds mom took alyssa and we waited for dinner then at 5:30pm he feel back to sleep but i cant tell you what he did between cuz he only sat with me for a 1/2 hr oo wait i can he was on the computer daaaa lol..then at 5:30pm he went to sleep slept until 10pm its like he waited for me to go sleep then he got off the computer at 1am then got back on at 2am then i finally said forget it im going to bed then he got off at 4:30am
but he went to sleep at 5:30am this morning then slept until 5:30pm then took a shower until 6pm then said do u mind me getting on the computer then stayed on till 7:45pm until dinner got done then we ate left at 8:06pm to go to kroger for my wic.. got to my house at 8:30pm threw his clothes in then i starting cleaning my room and he came in at 8:56pm and said he wanted to spend time with me...y so i wouldnt bitch..we sat down until 9:30pm and we were watching some fighting show he watchs every week and i couldnt find alyssas medicine so i called his mom to see if i left it over there and i finally found it by then he was on the computer...i talked to her until 10:05pm then todd was getting mad he got ready for work then he sat me down at 10:12pm and the at 10:15pm he had to leave...so nothing is changing..im so tired of hearing him cry cuz i hear it all the time but i think its just crap just so it sounds good..i would actually feel sry if he actually meant it but u cant mean something if you keep doing the same mistakes...
im the one who wants to spend time with him, he says what r we gonna do watch tv im like no y do we have to do anything how about just sit with each other like we used to..i let my mom keep lillian for a day so we could have a night together and i spent most of it by myself..im gonna tell him tonight when he calls on his break not to come over after work cuz all he does is sleep in my room until 4-6pm then i cant go in my room make noise cuz hes sleeping and whats the point of doing his clothes making him dinner when i see no result..
ok im done complaining im exhausted..goodnight