Maybe the best ever.....?
So this is my life....I really wish I had like a videocamera or something so I could just show it to you...but I am poor so I dont, so you will just have to listen to me blab about it in here. Lol. Dont get too bored please! Here goes...
Everything has been all sorts of crazy around here as usual. With Kaycee living here, its not too easy to get a moment to yourself. Just to sit there and think about things and life....and whatever you wanna think about. Now dont get me wrong, I love Kaycee living here, but sometimes I just wanna sleep in my bed all alone. Dang it, is that so much to ask?! Lol. Shes asking me to go back to Kansas with her this next week. And I know that the only reason shes asking me is because Pj cant go because he has court next week. Really makes you feel good knowing that you are second best to Pj. Not that theres anything wrong with Pj, but come on, that kinda hurts ya know? I really dont know if I want to go because its going to be reeeeeealllllly boring just like last time. But I dont want to hurt her feelings and say no and then she will have to go back all alone. Sheesh its just so gosh durn confusing.
I also have like the most confusing life ever because of my good friend whom I will not name that I am like completely freaking in love with (and i know usually reads this) and have no idea what to do about. And the reason that Im saying this is because on here I can actuelly say it and not just be like "uhhh.....i dunno" So heres what Im saying to you. I love you. No matter what. I want you to be there for everything in my life thats amazing, and everything that sucks. Because even on the worst day ever, you can somehow manage to make me smile, and thats something that I cant bear(<- right one?) to live without. You are the sun, moon, and stars in my life, and even if we have to just be friends until we grow old and die, it will be worth it because seeing your smile....makes my whole week amazing. Things will work out with us...I can feel it.
Okay good....I said that. Been meaning to for awhile...sorry!
Oh yea, and I have been meaning to say this too.....I may not know what I want to do with my life yet, but I really dont care. Because for now, I just want to live it freely while I can. I want to be a kid that sits at home and doesnt do anything all day, and play video games, and just look at the stars at night. I want to be one within myself. I have a million years to do everything and go everywhere, but for now, I want to be me. I know Im flawed, but I love who I am. And I love the people I know, and where I live (most times), and the things I do. And if you dont like that, then dont talk to me, because I really dont think that I will like you too much.
Everything has been all sorts of crazy around here as usual. With Kaycee living here, its not too easy to get a moment to yourself. Just to sit there and think about things and life....and whatever you wanna think about. Now dont get me wrong, I love Kaycee living here, but sometimes I just wanna sleep in my bed all alone. Dang it, is that so much to ask?! Lol. Shes asking me to go back to Kansas with her this next week. And I know that the only reason shes asking me is because Pj cant go because he has court next week. Really makes you feel good knowing that you are second best to Pj. Not that theres anything wrong with Pj, but come on, that kinda hurts ya know? I really dont know if I want to go because its going to be reeeeeealllllly boring just like last time. But I dont want to hurt her feelings and say no and then she will have to go back all alone. Sheesh its just so gosh durn confusing.
I also have like the most confusing life ever because of my good friend whom I will not name that I am like completely freaking in love with (and i know usually reads this) and have no idea what to do about. And the reason that Im saying this is because on here I can actuelly say it and not just be like "uhhh.....i dunno" So heres what Im saying to you. I love you. No matter what. I want you to be there for everything in my life thats amazing, and everything that sucks. Because even on the worst day ever, you can somehow manage to make me smile, and thats something that I cant bear(<- right one?) to live without. You are the sun, moon, and stars in my life, and even if we have to just be friends until we grow old and die, it will be worth it because seeing your smile....makes my whole week amazing. Things will work out with us...I can feel it.
Okay good....I said that. Been meaning to for awhile...sorry!
Oh yea, and I have been meaning to say this too.....I may not know what I want to do with my life yet, but I really dont care. Because for now, I just want to live it freely while I can. I want to be a kid that sits at home and doesnt do anything all day, and play video games, and just look at the stars at night. I want to be one within myself. I have a million years to do everything and go everywhere, but for now, I want to be me. I know Im flawed, but I love who I am. And I love the people I know, and where I live (most times), and the things I do. And if you dont like that, then dont talk to me, because I really dont think that I will like you too much.