Kill you - F*ck you - I will never be you
garsh...i dont know how today went...it went from good, to horrible, back to okay/good =/...
1st:ate donuts =) & OJ =D yumness
2nd:watched the rest of the disturbing movie..thank goodness its over!
3rd:had a sub, everyone said she was mean, she wasnt mean to our class...lol =/ got a worksheet, finished everything..
4th:went to computer lab...garsh..this was the greatest hour...me & Sam are sittin there typing up our reports then we hear some rap stuff..we were all lookin around the room & then we find out its Billy so me & him are all like "You cant spell Crap without Rap buddy!" he was like "YAH GOODCHARLOTTE! YAH BLINK182! YAH NEWFOUNDGLORY!" & he pointed to my hoodie i go "Wow your excelling in life, you know how to read, hooked on phonics worked for you!!" & he just gave me a dirty look, then he kept doing the YAH thing i was like "RAP=Retards Attempting Poetry" & then he goes like in a sarcastic way "YAH DUDE YOU ROCK!" i go "Why thank you Billy, i never knew you felt that way about me." & went back to my seat! lol. it was hillarious, & Erica was all saying "Im gonna go stompin in my air force ones" lol...2great2great..
*High School thingie*
6th:played kickball, i didnt feel really good =/..
After skool:walked home with Ryan, Grace, Amanda, Mike & Nick. Grace came on over, then later on Matthew came. Woo...i am trying to diet cuz i think im over weight =/..well so i ate sum yogurt =D haha...it was great you had to be there to think it was funny...Then
JJ came over =) it was nice. Cuz Grace had her b/f & i had mine, no one felt left out. Then Grace had to leave =(. So Me, Matthew, &
JJ got sum MickieD's =D yumness...then Matthew had to leave too =(.
- End of Good Mood -
Then me &
JJ were just cuddling and stuff ya'know..so then i was joking around how when he goes to Las Vegas he is gonna meet a skinny, pretty, big boobed girl & forget about me..=( i mean i was only joking but then i started thinking "What if that really does happen?" So then i got real upset just thinking about it, i mean
JJ was like saying real sweet things, but they weren't like clicking in my brain. It like went in one ear out the other, down my shoulder, & onto the floor. I mean i dont know i felt so numb...but then sooner or later we both got real emotional...=( so i gave in i couldnt take it, i didnt mean for myself to start believing my lies, jokes ect..So we made up slowly, then his dad came =( garsh...i wasted the whole night cuz i was bein a stubborn stupid bitch..god i hate it when i am like that to him, i totaly block him out. i hate it >=-O!!!! oh well...so yah we made up =) hugged each other, exchanged sweet words..=) then he left.. - End of Horrible Mood -
So then i took a nice HOT shower..=) it helped, came on here as usual. Then
JJ came on... =) i was so happy, we kept sayin "i love you, your my everything." ugh..he makes my heart flutter..=) He always makes me so unbelievably happy, i dont know, he never makes me in a bad mood, I make myself in the bad mood. He trys everything in his power to make it go away. But being me, i just turn away. =( oh well..but everything is grand now. =) Well i am gonna go now peace
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1st:ate donuts =) & OJ =D yumness
2nd:watched the rest of the disturbing movie..thank goodness its over!
3rd:had a sub, everyone said she was mean, she wasnt mean to our class...lol =/ got a worksheet, finished everything..
4th:went to computer lab...garsh..this was the greatest hour...me & Sam are sittin there typing up our reports then we hear some rap stuff..we were all lookin around the room & then we find out its Billy so me & him are all like "You cant spell Crap without Rap buddy!" he was like "YAH GOODCHARLOTTE! YAH BLINK182! YAH NEWFOUNDGLORY!" & he pointed to my hoodie i go "Wow your excelling in life, you know how to read, hooked on phonics worked for you!!" & he just gave me a dirty look, then he kept doing the YAH thing i was like "RAP=Retards Attempting Poetry" & then he goes like in a sarcastic way "YAH DUDE YOU ROCK!" i go "Why thank you Billy, i never knew you felt that way about me." & went back to my seat! lol. it was hillarious, & Erica was all saying "Im gonna go stompin in my air force ones" lol...2great2great..
*High School thingie*
6th:played kickball, i didnt feel really good =/..
After skool:walked home with Ryan, Grace, Amanda, Mike & Nick. Grace came on over, then later on Matthew came. Woo...i am trying to diet cuz i think im over weight =/..well so i ate sum yogurt =D haha...it was great you had to be there to think it was funny...Then
JJ came over =) it was nice. Cuz Grace had her b/f & i had mine, no one felt left out. Then Grace had to leave =(. So Me, Matthew, &
JJ got sum MickieD's =D yumness...then Matthew had to leave too =(.
- End of Good Mood -
Then me &
JJ were just cuddling and stuff ya'know..so then i was joking around how when he goes to Las Vegas he is gonna meet a skinny, pretty, big boobed girl & forget about me..=( i mean i was only joking but then i started thinking "What if that really does happen?" So then i got real upset just thinking about it, i mean
JJ was like saying real sweet things, but they weren't like clicking in my brain. It like went in one ear out the other, down my shoulder, & onto the floor. I mean i dont know i felt so numb...but then sooner or later we both got real emotional...=( so i gave in i couldnt take it, i didnt mean for myself to start believing my lies, jokes ect..So we made up slowly, then his dad came =( garsh...i wasted the whole night cuz i was bein a stubborn stupid bitch..god i hate it when i am like that to him, i totaly block him out. i hate it >=-O!!!! oh well...so yah we made up =) hugged each other, exchanged sweet words..=) then he left.. - End of Horrible Mood -
So then i took a nice HOT shower..=) it helped, came on here as usual. Then
JJ came on... =) i was so happy, we kept sayin "i love you, your my everything." ugh..he makes my heart flutter..=) He always makes me so unbelievably happy, i dont know, he never makes me in a bad mood, I make myself in the bad mood. He trys everything in his power to make it go away. But being me, i just turn away. =( oh well..but everything is grand now. =) Well i am gonna go now peace
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