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It feels like everyones hurting a lot right now.
I'm still hurting a lot right now.
But its getting easier every morning to get out of bed.
I have about two weeks left in this city,
then Im leaving all the bad shit behind.
Sometimes Im sorry,
for the good times and the bad.
But sometimes Im sick of being sorry for things that arent my fault.
Its just hard to believe that it wasnt always my fault.
...
Its been a rough summer.
Ive lost some people that I really love.
(That one hurts the most)
Ive fallen to the very bottom,
And had help climbing back up.
I've lost all hope in myself.
And Im still not sure if that will come back...
I was kicked out of a home we built together.
Left behind by people that were supposed to care.
Then was lucky enough to have parents who will always see me through.
I fucked up a lot of people thinking it would make me feel better.
But it didnt.
And it still doesnt.
And I wish I could feel bad for doing it...
I fucked myself up,
mostly to be on the same level as him,
but I just couldnt keep up.
I've felt uglier,
and more beautiful,
then I have my entire life.
I feel like I've been starring behind me for the past 5 months,
And Im finally turning around to look ahead.
September will bring good things.
Im counting on myself to make it happen.
...
I'm not letting go.
I'm still hurting a lot right now.
But its getting easier every morning to get out of bed.
I have about two weeks left in this city,
then Im leaving all the bad shit behind.
Sometimes Im sorry,
for the good times and the bad.
But sometimes Im sick of being sorry for things that arent my fault.
Its just hard to believe that it wasnt always my fault.
...
Its been a rough summer.
Ive lost some people that I really love.
(That one hurts the most)
Ive fallen to the very bottom,
And had help climbing back up.
I've lost all hope in myself.
And Im still not sure if that will come back...
I was kicked out of a home we built together.
Left behind by people that were supposed to care.
Then was lucky enough to have parents who will always see me through.
I fucked up a lot of people thinking it would make me feel better.
But it didnt.
And it still doesnt.
And I wish I could feel bad for doing it...
I fucked myself up,
mostly to be on the same level as him,
but I just couldnt keep up.
I've felt uglier,
and more beautiful,
then I have my entire life.
I feel like I've been starring behind me for the past 5 months,
And Im finally turning around to look ahead.
September will bring good things.
Im counting on myself to make it happen.
...
I'm not letting go.