dissappointment

[pink_synth_doll]

i'm dissapointed... and not with anything in virginia.
when i left home i already thought about how things would be.
what friendships would fall appart and those that wouldnt.
well i have had alot of time to look over my life and my adventures and my friendships.
and well...
there are some fucking amazing ones.
there are some great ones.
there are some good ones.
there are some alright ones.
and there are some that piss me off beyond belife.

my mom has called me my dad has called me jay has called me christopher has called
and my adam has called me.

i'm not saying everyone should have or should call me.
i'm just saying.
if you take the time to have called me your best friend....you should have.

i cant call anyone. (i cant even call gopals cell phone from the house phone)
because we's dont have long distance.
nope.
phone company said they fixed it....but guess what....they didnt.
i think they think if you live in the middle of nowhere you wont notice if they dont do there job or not.
HAHAHA worng. i have so much time i dun know what to do with it.

i've taken up quitting smokeing...uuhuh
i've been sick and it really sucks.
still keep coughing. cant breath very well.
sucks.
so smokeing is out!
cant smoke in the house. gopal is letting me smoke in the car now but i dont do it cuz then i feel guilty for makeing his car smell like smoke.
*shrugs*
i dont want to go to bed.
this is my frist night away from gopal scince i moved in (he had a show out of state) he gets back and then goes straight to work.
we have a date after he gets home from work tomarrow tho.
dinner, movie, and then play baldurs gate untill we pass out.
rock!
still doesnt make tonight any easier.

time for smokeing is now.

night night