nightmares and fairytails

[pink_synth_doll]

the nightmares-
this could end horrably...
that i realize hes acutally someone completely different then what i thought...
that this will end up just like the on before him...
that distance cant over come all...
that his personality toward me will change...
that i'll run away like i always do...
that i'll show weakness and make him run away...
so much more...

the fairytails-
that he acutally likes me and makes an effort and calls me and writes me every day...
that hes planning a trip out here just to come spend time with me...
that this could actally work...
that we havent seemed to have one clash in how or who we are...
the fact that he goes out of his way to make me a part of his life...
the fact that he shouldnt but he does anyway...
that for the first time in a long time i'm looking byond personal traits and more into the person themselfs inside. i'm not looking for things in common so that we can talk about it and have converstation on things we both know about. i'm actually getting to know someone without holding back all the lame details. getting to know everything and learning about the things i dont understand about him.
amazing.
completely amazing.

anyways ya...
i'm off!
have fun! ^_^