[Oneshot: Memories]
Title : Memories
Author : pink_stitchy /ai-chan
Pairing : Yamada Ryosuke x Nakajima Yuto / YamaJima
Beta : koigaii
Summary :Post-traumatic amnesia patient generally have no memory of the moments just before the accident and may also suffer lose knowledge of who people are including the person that he loved the most..
When Yamada opened his eyes, he could see worried faces surrounding him. His head felt heavy as he tried to wake up from the bed, touching his head slowly Yamada could feel soft fabric wrapped around his head. With a blurry vision Yamada looked around the room trying to figure out his where about since the room looked completely different from his bedroom.
“Yama-chan thank god you’re awake” The boy with a teary eyes happily hugging Yamada who still in confused state.
“Ma ma Chinen, I think it’s better if the doctor take a look on Yamada’s condition first” Slowly Chinen let go of Yamada shoulder and made a way for the man with a white coat who had been standing there for a while.
Yamada felt dizzy as the light penetrates his eyes causing his pupils to swing left and right. He felt like a person who’s being keep in a dark room for a long time and this is the first time in a while he see such a bright light.
“Okay then, I think you are in a good condition. You might experience a slight headache so you need a lot of rest and please don’t force yourself too much,” the young doctor explained before he left the room.
“Chinen what happened to me??” Finally Yamada voiced out the question that was bothering him from the moment he opened his eyes.
“You don’t remember??” Chinen seemed to be surprised with Yamada question.
“No,” Yamada replied as he shook his head.
“Ah Inoo sensei did warn us about this right? He said Yamada might not remember a few things because of his head injuries” Ryutaro said as he placed his hand on Chinen’s shoulder.
“You were hit by a car while crossing the road three days ago which caused the injuries on your head,” explained Chinen.
“W-what? I’ve been hit by a car? Why can’t I remember anything about it?”
“It’s because your head experienced serious a concussion which may affect your memories. You were having a post-traumatic amnesia.” Ryutaro took turn to explain the situation to Yamada.
“I’m sorry. It’s all my fault,” said the guy who stood at the edge of Yamada bed with a low tone, his eyes and nose were red as if he was crying day night.
“Who are you?” Yamada asked.
“Who am I?”
“Yeah who are you? I’ve never see you before.” Yamada asked again causing everyone in that small room looked at him with a puzzle face.
“Yama-chan it’s Yuto. Don’t you remember?” Chinen asked with disbelief face.
“Yuto who?? I don’t know anyone named Yuto and I never saw him before.”
“Okay who is this?” Chinen asked with his finger pointed to the guy next to him.
“That Morimoto Ryutaro and you are Chinen Yuri” replied Yamada with his finger pointed toward both of the boys standing beside his bed.
“Are you sure you don’t remember this guy?” Ryutaro asked as he placed his hand on Yuto shoulder.
“Yes I’m sure. What going on here?” Yamada started to worry as he sense something not right is happening.
“N-nothing. Gomen I mistook you for someone else, and I’m definitely in the wrong room right now,” Yuto said before he dashed out of the room.
“See! He mistook me for someone else. That explained why I didn’t know him,” Yamada said to both of his friend who stared at him with wide eyes.
“He didn’t remember me” Yuto placed his hand on his chest tried to ease the throbbing pain in his heart, it’s feel like his heart’s being ripped into pieces. Yuto know he’s the one who responsible for Yamada’s current state, he the one that caused Yamada to lay on the hospital bed unconscious for three days. So he deserved this, he deserved to be forgotten by the person he love the most as his punishment for hurting the only person who had loved him unconditionally.
**
“You’re late!!” Yamada said with pouting face.
“Gomen Ryo-Chan” Yuto said while he tries to catch his breath after running for about five minutes.
Ignoring Yuto apologies, Yamada stomped his feet toward the escalator leaving Yuto behind.
“Ryo-Chan wait up!” Yuto shouted as he tried to reach Yamada arm.
“What??!”
“I’m so sorry I know it my mistake for making you wait for me. I’m really really sorry, I got carried away with my practice,” Yuto knew Yamada really hate it when he’s late, it just he got carried away with his drum practice until he forget about the promise that he made to Yamada.
“I’ve been waiting for you for almost an hour” Yamada looked like he about to cry.
“Ryo-Chan, please don’t cry” Yuto begged while both of his hand cupped Yamada cute face.
“You know how much I hate waiting for others and you know how much I hate it to be alone. I even started to think that you might forget about me that’s why you didn’t show up.” Yamada’s small body trembled as he tries to hold back himself from cry.
“I know I know. I’m really sorry for being late, please don’t cry,” Yuto said as he pulled Yamada body into his embrace.
“I would never ever forget about you, Yamada Ryosuke. Because you mean so much to me and there not even a second passing by without me thinking of you.” Yamada could feel Yuto warm breath in his ears as Yuto whispered to him. Slowly Yuto lifted Yamada chin and stared right into Yamada eyes asking for forgiveness.
“This will be the last time I wait for you. Because next time if you late again I won’t waited up for you anymore” Yamada replied firmly.
“Fair enough, because I won’t make you wait up for me anymore” Yuto seemed to be relieved with Yamada’s words. Regardless of the people passing by them at the subway, Yuto plant a smooth kiss on Yamada lip.
“There people here,” Yamada said when Yuto lift his lips from Yamada pinky lips.
“So??”
“What would people say?” Yamada felt embarrassed and his cheeks already turned into red.
“I don’t care about others. Do you hate it when I kissed you in public?” Yuto asked
“No I don’t,”
“Really?” Yuto asked for certainty.
“Yes! I love Yuto’s kiss the most” Yamada said with a wide smile on his face.
“The most? Does it mean there other kisser that you like other than me??”
“Maybe..”
“Maybe??!” Yuto shouted.
“Hahaha. You know right that I never been with another guys other than you. In fact you’re my first in EVERYTHING, silly” Yamada replied with a giggle.
“Don’t scare me like that Ryo-Chan.” Yuto said with a relieve.
“Hai. Can we go now?”
“Ah right about that. Do you think they still have it??”
“I hope so, if don’t it all your fault.” Yamada put his hand around Yuto arm’s and drag him to the escalator.
“What was the name of the shop?” Yuto asked as they walked on the street.
“Mou Yuto-kun you should pay more attention when I talked. I told you right last night, it’s Secret Recipe and today is their grand opening. I must have that famous Strawberry Marshmallow Cheese cakes.”
“Do they only sell it today?”
“No, but since it so famous only those who early managed to buy it.” Yamada explained.
“So if it already finished today we can come again tomorrow right?
“Yes, but the feeling won’t be the same. You know as a food lover it’s really important for me to taste it before someone else did. It about satisfaction okay!”
“Haha you could be silly sometime you know that” Yuto laughed.
“Fine! You don’t need to accompany me. I can go by myself” offended by Yuto’s laugh Yamada let go of Yuto hand and run toward the pedestrian.
“Ryo-chan look out!!” Yuto screamed when he see red cars coming so fast from the road.
As Yamada turned his head toward Yuto, he can feel that he being hit by something. The next thing he knew he was already lay on the road with hot liquid running trough his eyes. Everything Yamada see looked red, he can hear people voices screaming as his vision started to blur. He can hear someone keep calling his name but he can’t respond to it since his can’t moved any part of his body. Trough his fuzzy gaze, Yamada could see Yuto watery eyes looking down at him with panic face.
“I-It’s okay Yuto-Kun, I’m okay. Please don’t cry” Yamada said as he tried touch Yuto face with his trembling hand and that was the last words from Yamada before he passed out.
**
“Are you okay?” asked the guy who stood beside Yuto.
“H-hai” Yuto answer while rub his watery eyes with his jacket sleeve.
“You’re Nakajima Yuto right? Yamada’s boyfriend?”
“Hai, how do you know” Yuto asked as the guy takes a seat beside Yuto.
“I’m Yamada’s doctor, of course I know everything about my patient,” replied Inoo with a smile
“Chinen -Kun told me about what happened.” Inoo said again.
“About what?” Yuto asked curiously.
“About Yamada condition who seem can’t remember who you are”
“I deserve it” Yuto replied with a sad voice.
“Patient who having post-traumatic amnesia usually have no memory of the moments just before the accident due to a brief interruption in the short or long-term memory transfer mechanism. There are also patient who might also suffer from losing knowledge of which people are, just like what is happening to Yamada.” Explained Inoo.
“For how long?”
“It depends on patient condition, there no exact time line for this kind of amnesia. We can’t force them to remember because it may cause a serious pain to the patient. We just can wait patiently for the memory to recover by itself,” Inoo answered as he took a slurp from the paper cup that he was holding.
“I don’t mind waiting even tough it take my whole life for him to remember me.”
“You remind me one of my patients. He having a post-traumatic amnesia too, but instead of having no memory about his boyfriend, he only remembered his boyfriend as his best friend. Before they were in love they were best friend. After he involved in car crash, he lost all the memories he had with his boyfriend and he only left out with a memory of him as his best friend.”
“Do you know what happened to them?” Yuto asked
“Up until now, they stay as best friend. Ah my shift were about to started” Inoo said while looking at his watches.
“Wait, the patient you were talking about is Yabu-senpai right?” Yuto asked as he remember the tragic stories that happened to one of his college senpai.
“Yes and I’m his best friend. You see if you truly love someone, just be able to stay by his side would be enough and you already content with that” Inoo replied with a sad smile on his face.
"Then what should I do? Ryo-Chan have no memories of who I am, wasn't it just make me a stranger to him?" It's a painful fact that Yuto need to faced because right now he just a stranger to a person he loved the most.
"What a stranger will do to get acknowledge?" Inoo asked
"Do it all over again"
**
Yamada’s eyes were on the blue sky staring at the cloud as he tries to figure out what kind of shape the cloud form. He can feel a smooth wind blow over his face leaving a comfortable feeling on his heart. It’s been almost a week Yamada in hospital and when he all alone he will goes up to the hospital rooftop staring at the sky. Being left alone in that small rooms really smother him, he hated the idea of being alone. It making him feels like no one wanted him or remembered him anymore. Out here he feel so free and calm, even though he was afraid of height he really loved this spot because rooftop remind him of something. Something that’s so precious to him but he doesn’t remember what it is.
“Is this seat taken?” asked the tall guy who stood beside Yamada.
“N-no.” replied Yamada as he looked up.
“Hey I remember you…” said Yamada when that person took a seat beside him.
“You did??”
“Yeah, you’re the guy from the other day, right? The one who’s in the wrong room” asked Yamada with a grin.
“Y-yeah that’s me. The guy in the wrong room,” answer Yuto with his eyes gazing sadly on the floor. Being here on the rooftop alone with Yamada reminded Yuto the first time they met on the school rooftop two years ago.
“I’m Yamada Ryosuke,”
“Nakajima Yuto” Yuto replied as he shook hand Yamada. While touching Yamada hands, Yuto’s heart started to quiver, reminding him how much he missed holding those small hands. It remind him those sweet moments when they always holds hand while walking side by side, the moment when they’re having pillow talk while holding each other hand until both of them fell asleep, the moment when they stay up until midnight in the libraries studying while gripping each other hand tightly. Yuto knew if he haven’t let go of Yamada hand on that day, these thing wouldn’t happened in first placed. It’s all his fault.
“Are you okay?” asked Yamada as he saw Yuto stared at his hand for quite some time.
“Y-yeah I’m okay,”
“Did you found your friend room?”
“Yeah I did.”
“How he?”
“Fine. Can I ask you something Ryo-Chan?”
“Ryo-chan??” Yamada seem to be in shock when he heard Yuto called him by his first name.
“Gomen, I hope you don’t mind if I’m called you by your first name,”
“Urmm it’s okay you can called me by my first name. It just when I heard you saying my name it felt so different”
“Different? How?”
“How? Well how should I put this, eto it’s feel like I’ve heard it before. The way you said it, it sound exactly like the voice that I being heard in head,” Ever since Yamada woke up from coma there this voices who keep calling his name echo in his head. It wasn’t Chinen or Ryutaro voice, it’s someone else’s but he can’t remember who’s voice is it.
“Anyway what is it that you want to ask me?”
“Owh that. Have you eaten?” Yuto asked
“Nope.” Yamada replied while shaking his head
“Here..” Yuto said as he placed a small red box on Yamada palm.
“Secret recipe,” Yamada read the writing outside the box. As he opened the lid he see a slice of cake with strawberries topping on it.
“It’s their signature the famous Strawberry Marshmallow Cheese cake”
“Can I eat it?” Yamada asked.
“Yeah. I brought it for you”
“Itadakimasu,” Yamada said before he took a bite of the cake. As he munched the soft cake, the taste of juicy strawberry and the sweetness of marshmallow filled his mouth.
“So how is it?” Yuto asked the smaller boy who seem to be enjoying the cake.
“It taste so good~” Yamada answer with a big smile.
Yuto slowly place his finger on Yamada lips and wiped off the cream before he lick his finger “Yeah it does.”
“Do you hate it when I kissed you in public?” Suddenly Yamada heard a voice in his head, the same voice that keep calling his name desperately. “Whose voice is that? Why he sound like Yuto-kun?” A throbbing pain suddenly strikes Yamada’s head as he tried to remember the blur image play in his head. The harder Yamada forced himself to remember the more painful it felt. It’s like there’s big wall blocking his head from remembering that person.
“Ryo-Chan, are you okay?!” Yuto voice sound worried when he saw Yamada closed his eyes tightly while his hand on his head. Yamada looked like he really in the pain right now.
“H-hai,” Yamada stutter as he open his eyes slowly.
“Are sure you? You want to go back to your room?”
“Yeah I’m okay now,” Yamada said while he tried to curve a smile.
“Ne Yuto-Kun, have you ever felt like you’re forgetting something that so important to you?”
“Yeah sometimes..”
“I never tell this to anyone, but I feel like I’ve forgot something that so important to me. Each time I tried to remember it, my head will hurt. When I’m with my friend it felt like there’s someone missing, someone that means so much to me. My heart, it felt like it’s been longing for someone, but I can’t figure out who’s is it. I’m afraid ,Yuto-kun, what if I truly already forget about someone?” Yamada said with his hand clench on his chest.
“It’s okay Ryo-chan. It’s okay if you don’t remember that person,” Yuto said while rubbing Yamada back. It really hurts him see the person he love the most in pain. That’s why he already decided he will live with the fact that Yamada didn’t remember about him. He rather chose to hurt himself than seeing Yamada in pain because of trying to remember him.
“Hurmm it’s okay?” Yamada didn’t know why but somehow Yuto words ease his heart. Somehow Yuto’s words make him feel it’s okay if he can’t remember who that person is.
“Yeah because that person will never ever forget about you and he will always be by your side,” It’s a promised that Yuto made to himself, even tough Yamada might never remember the relationship that they had.
“Listening to Yuto-Kun words really make me happy. Ne Yuto-Kun will you come and visit me again tomorrow?” Yamada asked with a wide smile plaster on his face.
“For Ryo-Chan, I will do anything as long as I can see that smiling face again.” Anything even though it means Yuto has to break his own heart and do it all over again.
***
Note:
1) I don't know what to say about the ending..It a heart breaking when Yamada doesn't has a memory about who's Yuto is, so it sad ending right? But in other hand Yamada seem to be pleased with Yuto and he want to see Yuto more which make it a happy ending >,<
2) if you notice there Inoobu moment here (only slight) which is I dedicated to koigaii thank you so much for all the helps..
3)I really really love comment please make one for me and share with me what you feel about the story nee.
Thank for stopping by \(^__^)/
Author : pink_stitchy /ai-chan
Pairing : Yamada Ryosuke x Nakajima Yuto / YamaJima
Beta : koigaii
Summary :Post-traumatic amnesia patient generally have no memory of the moments just before the accident and may also suffer lose knowledge of who people are including the person that he loved the most..
When Yamada opened his eyes, he could see worried faces surrounding him. His head felt heavy as he tried to wake up from the bed, touching his head slowly Yamada could feel soft fabric wrapped around his head. With a blurry vision Yamada looked around the room trying to figure out his where about since the room looked completely different from his bedroom.
“Yama-chan thank god you’re awake” The boy with a teary eyes happily hugging Yamada who still in confused state.
“Ma ma Chinen, I think it’s better if the doctor take a look on Yamada’s condition first” Slowly Chinen let go of Yamada shoulder and made a way for the man with a white coat who had been standing there for a while.
Yamada felt dizzy as the light penetrates his eyes causing his pupils to swing left and right. He felt like a person who’s being keep in a dark room for a long time and this is the first time in a while he see such a bright light.
“Okay then, I think you are in a good condition. You might experience a slight headache so you need a lot of rest and please don’t force yourself too much,” the young doctor explained before he left the room.
“Chinen what happened to me??” Finally Yamada voiced out the question that was bothering him from the moment he opened his eyes.
“You don’t remember??” Chinen seemed to be surprised with Yamada question.
“No,” Yamada replied as he shook his head.
“Ah Inoo sensei did warn us about this right? He said Yamada might not remember a few things because of his head injuries” Ryutaro said as he placed his hand on Chinen’s shoulder.
“You were hit by a car while crossing the road three days ago which caused the injuries on your head,” explained Chinen.
“W-what? I’ve been hit by a car? Why can’t I remember anything about it?”
“It’s because your head experienced serious a concussion which may affect your memories. You were having a post-traumatic amnesia.” Ryutaro took turn to explain the situation to Yamada.
“I’m sorry. It’s all my fault,” said the guy who stood at the edge of Yamada bed with a low tone, his eyes and nose were red as if he was crying day night.
“Who are you?” Yamada asked.
“Who am I?”
“Yeah who are you? I’ve never see you before.” Yamada asked again causing everyone in that small room looked at him with a puzzle face.
“Yama-chan it’s Yuto. Don’t you remember?” Chinen asked with disbelief face.
“Yuto who?? I don’t know anyone named Yuto and I never saw him before.”
“Okay who is this?” Chinen asked with his finger pointed to the guy next to him.
“That Morimoto Ryutaro and you are Chinen Yuri” replied Yamada with his finger pointed toward both of the boys standing beside his bed.
“Are you sure you don’t remember this guy?” Ryutaro asked as he placed his hand on Yuto shoulder.
“Yes I’m sure. What going on here?” Yamada started to worry as he sense something not right is happening.
“N-nothing. Gomen I mistook you for someone else, and I’m definitely in the wrong room right now,” Yuto said before he dashed out of the room.
“See! He mistook me for someone else. That explained why I didn’t know him,” Yamada said to both of his friend who stared at him with wide eyes.
“He didn’t remember me” Yuto placed his hand on his chest tried to ease the throbbing pain in his heart, it’s feel like his heart’s being ripped into pieces. Yuto know he’s the one who responsible for Yamada’s current state, he the one that caused Yamada to lay on the hospital bed unconscious for three days. So he deserved this, he deserved to be forgotten by the person he love the most as his punishment for hurting the only person who had loved him unconditionally.
**
“You’re late!!” Yamada said with pouting face.
“Gomen Ryo-Chan” Yuto said while he tries to catch his breath after running for about five minutes.
Ignoring Yuto apologies, Yamada stomped his feet toward the escalator leaving Yuto behind.
“Ryo-Chan wait up!” Yuto shouted as he tried to reach Yamada arm.
“What??!”
“I’m so sorry I know it my mistake for making you wait for me. I’m really really sorry, I got carried away with my practice,” Yuto knew Yamada really hate it when he’s late, it just he got carried away with his drum practice until he forget about the promise that he made to Yamada.
“I’ve been waiting for you for almost an hour” Yamada looked like he about to cry.
“Ryo-Chan, please don’t cry” Yuto begged while both of his hand cupped Yamada cute face.
“You know how much I hate waiting for others and you know how much I hate it to be alone. I even started to think that you might forget about me that’s why you didn’t show up.” Yamada’s small body trembled as he tries to hold back himself from cry.
“I know I know. I’m really sorry for being late, please don’t cry,” Yuto said as he pulled Yamada body into his embrace.
“I would never ever forget about you, Yamada Ryosuke. Because you mean so much to me and there not even a second passing by without me thinking of you.” Yamada could feel Yuto warm breath in his ears as Yuto whispered to him. Slowly Yuto lifted Yamada chin and stared right into Yamada eyes asking for forgiveness.
“This will be the last time I wait for you. Because next time if you late again I won’t waited up for you anymore” Yamada replied firmly.
“Fair enough, because I won’t make you wait up for me anymore” Yuto seemed to be relieved with Yamada’s words. Regardless of the people passing by them at the subway, Yuto plant a smooth kiss on Yamada lip.
“There people here,” Yamada said when Yuto lift his lips from Yamada pinky lips.
“So??”
“What would people say?” Yamada felt embarrassed and his cheeks already turned into red.
“I don’t care about others. Do you hate it when I kissed you in public?” Yuto asked
“No I don’t,”
“Really?” Yuto asked for certainty.
“Yes! I love Yuto’s kiss the most” Yamada said with a wide smile on his face.
“The most? Does it mean there other kisser that you like other than me??”
“Maybe..”
“Maybe??!” Yuto shouted.
“Hahaha. You know right that I never been with another guys other than you. In fact you’re my first in EVERYTHING, silly” Yamada replied with a giggle.
“Don’t scare me like that Ryo-Chan.” Yuto said with a relieve.
“Hai. Can we go now?”
“Ah right about that. Do you think they still have it??”
“I hope so, if don’t it all your fault.” Yamada put his hand around Yuto arm’s and drag him to the escalator.
“What was the name of the shop?” Yuto asked as they walked on the street.
“Mou Yuto-kun you should pay more attention when I talked. I told you right last night, it’s Secret Recipe and today is their grand opening. I must have that famous Strawberry Marshmallow Cheese cakes.”
“Do they only sell it today?”
“No, but since it so famous only those who early managed to buy it.” Yamada explained.
“So if it already finished today we can come again tomorrow right?
“Yes, but the feeling won’t be the same. You know as a food lover it’s really important for me to taste it before someone else did. It about satisfaction okay!”
“Haha you could be silly sometime you know that” Yuto laughed.
“Fine! You don’t need to accompany me. I can go by myself” offended by Yuto’s laugh Yamada let go of Yuto hand and run toward the pedestrian.
“Ryo-chan look out!!” Yuto screamed when he see red cars coming so fast from the road.
As Yamada turned his head toward Yuto, he can feel that he being hit by something. The next thing he knew he was already lay on the road with hot liquid running trough his eyes. Everything Yamada see looked red, he can hear people voices screaming as his vision started to blur. He can hear someone keep calling his name but he can’t respond to it since his can’t moved any part of his body. Trough his fuzzy gaze, Yamada could see Yuto watery eyes looking down at him with panic face.
“I-It’s okay Yuto-Kun, I’m okay. Please don’t cry” Yamada said as he tried touch Yuto face with his trembling hand and that was the last words from Yamada before he passed out.
**
“Are you okay?” asked the guy who stood beside Yuto.
“H-hai” Yuto answer while rub his watery eyes with his jacket sleeve.
“You’re Nakajima Yuto right? Yamada’s boyfriend?”
“Hai, how do you know” Yuto asked as the guy takes a seat beside Yuto.
“I’m Yamada’s doctor, of course I know everything about my patient,” replied Inoo with a smile
“Chinen -Kun told me about what happened.” Inoo said again.
“About what?” Yuto asked curiously.
“About Yamada condition who seem can’t remember who you are”
“I deserve it” Yuto replied with a sad voice.
“Patient who having post-traumatic amnesia usually have no memory of the moments just before the accident due to a brief interruption in the short or long-term memory transfer mechanism. There are also patient who might also suffer from losing knowledge of which people are, just like what is happening to Yamada.” Explained Inoo.
“For how long?”
“It depends on patient condition, there no exact time line for this kind of amnesia. We can’t force them to remember because it may cause a serious pain to the patient. We just can wait patiently for the memory to recover by itself,” Inoo answered as he took a slurp from the paper cup that he was holding.
“I don’t mind waiting even tough it take my whole life for him to remember me.”
“You remind me one of my patients. He having a post-traumatic amnesia too, but instead of having no memory about his boyfriend, he only remembered his boyfriend as his best friend. Before they were in love they were best friend. After he involved in car crash, he lost all the memories he had with his boyfriend and he only left out with a memory of him as his best friend.”
“Do you know what happened to them?” Yuto asked
“Up until now, they stay as best friend. Ah my shift were about to started” Inoo said while looking at his watches.
“Wait, the patient you were talking about is Yabu-senpai right?” Yuto asked as he remember the tragic stories that happened to one of his college senpai.
“Yes and I’m his best friend. You see if you truly love someone, just be able to stay by his side would be enough and you already content with that” Inoo replied with a sad smile on his face.
"Then what should I do? Ryo-Chan have no memories of who I am, wasn't it just make me a stranger to him?" It's a painful fact that Yuto need to faced because right now he just a stranger to a person he loved the most.
"What a stranger will do to get acknowledge?" Inoo asked
"Do it all over again"
**
Yamada’s eyes were on the blue sky staring at the cloud as he tries to figure out what kind of shape the cloud form. He can feel a smooth wind blow over his face leaving a comfortable feeling on his heart. It’s been almost a week Yamada in hospital and when he all alone he will goes up to the hospital rooftop staring at the sky. Being left alone in that small rooms really smother him, he hated the idea of being alone. It making him feels like no one wanted him or remembered him anymore. Out here he feel so free and calm, even though he was afraid of height he really loved this spot because rooftop remind him of something. Something that’s so precious to him but he doesn’t remember what it is.
“Is this seat taken?” asked the tall guy who stood beside Yamada.
“N-no.” replied Yamada as he looked up.
“Hey I remember you…” said Yamada when that person took a seat beside him.
“You did??”
“Yeah, you’re the guy from the other day, right? The one who’s in the wrong room” asked Yamada with a grin.
“Y-yeah that’s me. The guy in the wrong room,” answer Yuto with his eyes gazing sadly on the floor. Being here on the rooftop alone with Yamada reminded Yuto the first time they met on the school rooftop two years ago.
“I’m Yamada Ryosuke,”
“Nakajima Yuto” Yuto replied as he shook hand Yamada. While touching Yamada hands, Yuto’s heart started to quiver, reminding him how much he missed holding those small hands. It remind him those sweet moments when they always holds hand while walking side by side, the moment when they’re having pillow talk while holding each other hand until both of them fell asleep, the moment when they stay up until midnight in the libraries studying while gripping each other hand tightly. Yuto knew if he haven’t let go of Yamada hand on that day, these thing wouldn’t happened in first placed. It’s all his fault.
“Are you okay?” asked Yamada as he saw Yuto stared at his hand for quite some time.
“Y-yeah I’m okay,”
“Did you found your friend room?”
“Yeah I did.”
“How he?”
“Fine. Can I ask you something Ryo-Chan?”
“Ryo-chan??” Yamada seem to be in shock when he heard Yuto called him by his first name.
“Gomen, I hope you don’t mind if I’m called you by your first name,”
“Urmm it’s okay you can called me by my first name. It just when I heard you saying my name it felt so different”
“Different? How?”
“How? Well how should I put this, eto it’s feel like I’ve heard it before. The way you said it, it sound exactly like the voice that I being heard in head,” Ever since Yamada woke up from coma there this voices who keep calling his name echo in his head. It wasn’t Chinen or Ryutaro voice, it’s someone else’s but he can’t remember who’s voice is it.
“Anyway what is it that you want to ask me?”
“Owh that. Have you eaten?” Yuto asked
“Nope.” Yamada replied while shaking his head
“Here..” Yuto said as he placed a small red box on Yamada palm.
“Secret recipe,” Yamada read the writing outside the box. As he opened the lid he see a slice of cake with strawberries topping on it.
“It’s their signature the famous Strawberry Marshmallow Cheese cake”
“Can I eat it?” Yamada asked.
“Yeah. I brought it for you”
“Itadakimasu,” Yamada said before he took a bite of the cake. As he munched the soft cake, the taste of juicy strawberry and the sweetness of marshmallow filled his mouth.
“So how is it?” Yuto asked the smaller boy who seem to be enjoying the cake.
“It taste so good~” Yamada answer with a big smile.
Yuto slowly place his finger on Yamada lips and wiped off the cream before he lick his finger “Yeah it does.”
“Do you hate it when I kissed you in public?” Suddenly Yamada heard a voice in his head, the same voice that keep calling his name desperately. “Whose voice is that? Why he sound like Yuto-kun?” A throbbing pain suddenly strikes Yamada’s head as he tried to remember the blur image play in his head. The harder Yamada forced himself to remember the more painful it felt. It’s like there’s big wall blocking his head from remembering that person.
“Ryo-Chan, are you okay?!” Yuto voice sound worried when he saw Yamada closed his eyes tightly while his hand on his head. Yamada looked like he really in the pain right now.
“H-hai,” Yamada stutter as he open his eyes slowly.
“Are sure you? You want to go back to your room?”
“Yeah I’m okay now,” Yamada said while he tried to curve a smile.
“Ne Yuto-Kun, have you ever felt like you’re forgetting something that so important to you?”
“Yeah sometimes..”
“I never tell this to anyone, but I feel like I’ve forgot something that so important to me. Each time I tried to remember it, my head will hurt. When I’m with my friend it felt like there’s someone missing, someone that means so much to me. My heart, it felt like it’s been longing for someone, but I can’t figure out who’s is it. I’m afraid ,Yuto-kun, what if I truly already forget about someone?” Yamada said with his hand clench on his chest.
“It’s okay Ryo-chan. It’s okay if you don’t remember that person,” Yuto said while rubbing Yamada back. It really hurts him see the person he love the most in pain. That’s why he already decided he will live with the fact that Yamada didn’t remember about him. He rather chose to hurt himself than seeing Yamada in pain because of trying to remember him.
“Hurmm it’s okay?” Yamada didn’t know why but somehow Yuto words ease his heart. Somehow Yuto’s words make him feel it’s okay if he can’t remember who that person is.
“Yeah because that person will never ever forget about you and he will always be by your side,” It’s a promised that Yuto made to himself, even tough Yamada might never remember the relationship that they had.
“Listening to Yuto-Kun words really make me happy. Ne Yuto-Kun will you come and visit me again tomorrow?” Yamada asked with a wide smile plaster on his face.
“For Ryo-Chan, I will do anything as long as I can see that smiling face again.” Anything even though it means Yuto has to break his own heart and do it all over again.
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Note:
1) I don't know what to say about the ending..It a heart breaking when Yamada doesn't has a memory about who's Yuto is, so it sad ending right? But in other hand Yamada seem to be pleased with Yuto and he want to see Yuto more which make it a happy ending >,<
2) if you notice there Inoobu moment here (only slight) which is I dedicated to koigaii thank you so much for all the helps..
3)I really really love comment please make one for me and share with me what you feel about the story nee.
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