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aggravated, angry, confused, content, crushed, curious, depressed, determined, disappointed, drained, envious, excited, gloomy, grumpy, hopeful, horny, jealous , lonely, moddy, naughty, nauseated, nervous,rejexted, sad, shocked, sick, stressed, worried.
These are all the emotions that i am feeling right now, I really have no idea what to do with myself right now. Chad broke up with me yesterday, and I am flipping. I have my major ups and downs. But actually I am really depressed but hiding it all, well of what has hit me so far. I cant even think about my life without him. I had so many plans for the future that are completely ruined now. He was my first and I loved him, yes I was even in love with him, me, I know, shocking. But now my heart is slowly ripping apart, which is kinda a good thing that its going slow, just because that way its hitting me in bits and pieces, but its constant. I hate to think of my future as alone. I am really scared. He was the first guy that I really trusted and now he is... gone. I regret doing the things that I did. But I really miss him and it has only been a day. And I wanted to say "lets be friends" but that just seemed so corney, and I am way too upset and hurt to be friends with him right now. Maybe in a week or two or more. I dont kno what to do.
My heart is saying "run to him tell him that you love him and cant live without him", then my head is saying "NO! Just chill out for a while, take a break from guys, get your life on track, just have fun for now."
What should I do!?
These are all the emotions that i am feeling right now, I really have no idea what to do with myself right now. Chad broke up with me yesterday, and I am flipping. I have my major ups and downs. But actually I am really depressed but hiding it all, well of what has hit me so far. I cant even think about my life without him. I had so many plans for the future that are completely ruined now. He was my first and I loved him, yes I was even in love with him, me, I know, shocking. But now my heart is slowly ripping apart, which is kinda a good thing that its going slow, just because that way its hitting me in bits and pieces, but its constant. I hate to think of my future as alone. I am really scared. He was the first guy that I really trusted and now he is... gone. I regret doing the things that I did. But I really miss him and it has only been a day. And I wanted to say "lets be friends" but that just seemed so corney, and I am way too upset and hurt to be friends with him right now. Maybe in a week or two or more. I dont kno what to do.
My heart is saying "run to him tell him that you love him and cant live without him", then my head is saying "NO! Just chill out for a while, take a break from guys, get your life on track, just have fun for now."
What should I do!?