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my mom is driving me fucking crazy... i am gonna pull my hair out or something.
she tries to ground me for some dumb ass reasons. and people get mad over stupid shit.
people need to just get over the little things they are bitchin about and shut the fuck up. no ones life is perfect so try to make the best of it. its just hard when you have some dumb bitches bitchin around you all the time. people are fuckin stressin me out.
my mom knows nothing about me... really, i never tell her anything about me... not even when i was a little girl. hell i didnt even tell her i started my period until a year later.. i dont tell my mom a thing about me, just nessecary shit. and half of that isnt true. now she tries to ground me for no good reason... why because i said something about someone else cleaning... she is always telling me to clean at times when i am on the way out the door and shit. she tries to keep me home or something??? but today she really pissed me off. she told me that if she could hyave changed me she would. thats some bull shit. i wouldnt change me.. i like me just the way i am, she dont even know me to be saying this shit. you are thinking this is your mom she knows you.... blah blah blah... she knows me to an extent but she doesnt know the real ME. like what i am like inside.. the way i think... ya know those things you learn about your best friend after a long long time of being their friend. you know what they are saying even if they fuck up the sentence soo bad.
my mom tries to be a friend and tries to "hang" its not that i dont like her... she just stays on my ass about everything. she grounded me all weekend for nothing. she is just being sooo fucking stupid. i am really soo ready to move out. i can move anytime i want. i have a house i can move to... no hassel... and im soo close to just leaving. i just dont want to leave when she is all pissed at me. but thereis never a time she isnt pissed at me. my life is such bull shit when it comes to her. she is always fucking things up. my plans.. my fucking life. she restrains me from doing anything i want to do. she has a problem when i want to do something simple.
she made me feel like shit today. i hate my family. i really do. i dont have a good one out of them all. my dad is a fucking bastard that cant do a damn thing for me. my mom treats me like i am her fucking vent, she just takes everything out on me. my step dad is straight but the last encounter we had he said some horribly mean stuff and he is always making my mom madder at me. my brother is my brother... we are not close by any means. we were when we were kids and now he dont give a shit about me.
sometimes i just want to fall over and never wake up.
i want to make my realationship better with my mom because if she ever dies i will miss her but she isnt letting anything get better. she is just pushing me away, i dont know what to do. i tried to tell her good night last night and give her a kiss and of course she barks orders at me. i just want her to leave me alone and let me do my own thing. but since i am still here so wont let me do a damn thing.
i feel soo depressed and sad right now. i have been crying all morning and i even had on make up so it is really bad.
i wish i had a differnt mom... hell not a mom... just a life with no family. but some friends. no immediate family. they think they have a certain control over your head like they can change your thoughts or something???
i wish my mom would just leave me the hell alone. she is being a totoal fucking bitch.
i want to just go to michigan and never talk to her again. just move somewhere. just the thing is if i move i will have no car to get to school and work. but yet my brother moves out he takes his car... but for me its not like that.. i cant take mine with me.
::attention life::
YOU CAN SUCK MY FUCKING ASS
she tries to ground me for some dumb ass reasons. and people get mad over stupid shit.
people need to just get over the little things they are bitchin about and shut the fuck up. no ones life is perfect so try to make the best of it. its just hard when you have some dumb bitches bitchin around you all the time. people are fuckin stressin me out.
my mom knows nothing about me... really, i never tell her anything about me... not even when i was a little girl. hell i didnt even tell her i started my period until a year later.. i dont tell my mom a thing about me, just nessecary shit. and half of that isnt true. now she tries to ground me for no good reason... why because i said something about someone else cleaning... she is always telling me to clean at times when i am on the way out the door and shit. she tries to keep me home or something??? but today she really pissed me off. she told me that if she could hyave changed me she would. thats some bull shit. i wouldnt change me.. i like me just the way i am, she dont even know me to be saying this shit. you are thinking this is your mom she knows you.... blah blah blah... she knows me to an extent but she doesnt know the real ME. like what i am like inside.. the way i think... ya know those things you learn about your best friend after a long long time of being their friend. you know what they are saying even if they fuck up the sentence soo bad.
my mom tries to be a friend and tries to "hang" its not that i dont like her... she just stays on my ass about everything. she grounded me all weekend for nothing. she is just being sooo fucking stupid. i am really soo ready to move out. i can move anytime i want. i have a house i can move to... no hassel... and im soo close to just leaving. i just dont want to leave when she is all pissed at me. but thereis never a time she isnt pissed at me. my life is such bull shit when it comes to her. she is always fucking things up. my plans.. my fucking life. she restrains me from doing anything i want to do. she has a problem when i want to do something simple.
she made me feel like shit today. i hate my family. i really do. i dont have a good one out of them all. my dad is a fucking bastard that cant do a damn thing for me. my mom treats me like i am her fucking vent, she just takes everything out on me. my step dad is straight but the last encounter we had he said some horribly mean stuff and he is always making my mom madder at me. my brother is my brother... we are not close by any means. we were when we were kids and now he dont give a shit about me.
sometimes i just want to fall over and never wake up.
i want to make my realationship better with my mom because if she ever dies i will miss her but she isnt letting anything get better. she is just pushing me away, i dont know what to do. i tried to tell her good night last night and give her a kiss and of course she barks orders at me. i just want her to leave me alone and let me do my own thing. but since i am still here so wont let me do a damn thing.
i feel soo depressed and sad right now. i have been crying all morning and i even had on make up so it is really bad.
i wish i had a differnt mom... hell not a mom... just a life with no family. but some friends. no immediate family. they think they have a certain control over your head like they can change your thoughts or something???
i wish my mom would just leave me the hell alone. she is being a totoal fucking bitch.
i want to just go to michigan and never talk to her again. just move somewhere. just the thing is if i move i will have no car to get to school and work. but yet my brother moves out he takes his car... but for me its not like that.. i cant take mine with me.
::attention life::
YOU CAN SUCK MY FUCKING ASS