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i hate days like these
when you just start off so upset/sad.
i cant stop crying-
listening to her space holiday and looking at pictures of everything im leaving behind
i have no idea what im doing.
no idea at all, but im so impulsive that i know im going to do it either way.
but what happens when i realize all of this on the other side of the country?
i wont be able to just come back.
or what if it actually works out and im so content over there and i stay and live life? the life i had over here is just going to disappear.
either way, i sure am in a pickle.
i wish that i wasnt so torn and that i didnt really have a home on each coast.
my great grandma is going to be 105 this year. what happens when her health finally goes? i wont be here. what happens when i wont have money to fly back to see my mom on christmas? what happens when anything at all goes wrong or happens without me? i cant deal with all of this.
i dont know why its so hard for me to say "i love you" to my mom. because i love her so much and i wish i could tell her.
when you just start off so upset/sad.
i cant stop crying-
listening to her space holiday and looking at pictures of everything im leaving behind
i have no idea what im doing.
no idea at all, but im so impulsive that i know im going to do it either way.
but what happens when i realize all of this on the other side of the country?
i wont be able to just come back.
or what if it actually works out and im so content over there and i stay and live life? the life i had over here is just going to disappear.
either way, i sure am in a pickle.
i wish that i wasnt so torn and that i didnt really have a home on each coast.
my great grandma is going to be 105 this year. what happens when her health finally goes? i wont be here. what happens when i wont have money to fly back to see my mom on christmas? what happens when anything at all goes wrong or happens without me? i cant deal with all of this.
i dont know why its so hard for me to say "i love you" to my mom. because i love her so much and i wish i could tell her.