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What are my resolutions for the New Year? I don't really believe in resolutions b/c, well, who actually follows them? But I'm thinking that this year, I need to write down a few that are absolutely necessary to keep me on track (or put me on a new one altogether).
So..
1. Stay in shape. I know this is EVERYONE'S New Years resolution, but since I'm already in shape, I think I'd like to keep in up and try not to turn into a disgraceful slob.
2. Stand up for myself. Lately people have been dealing some really low blows, and I'm sick of laughing it off like I don't care...and then laying in bed all night thinking about what I should've said.
3. Stop being so intimidated. I'm intimidated by very few people, but there are a few right now that get me a little on the nervous side, and there's really no need for it at all. Maybe I should be more intimidating myself.
4. Be confident. Easier said than done. But I had an epiphany the other night; for years I let myself be bothered by people who make me feel less than I am, but I realize that I'm actually a much better person than they let me believe myself to be...I'm actually a better person than any of them. Which isn't saying much.
5. Save my money. I have a really bad habit of spending everything I earn, lol. Some things are necessary (like food and bills), but I need to evaluate how much of it is necessary and how much I can live without. I would like to have enough money to invest by the time I graduate. And this is possible.
6. Work harder! I'm smart enough to get all As without cracking the binding on any of my books, but that's not what I want to be about. Last semester I put some actual effort in, and I'd like to put even more in this time around; I don't want to leave a class and say,"Icould've done better". And I'd like to have a 3.6 by the end of Spring semester.
7. Drop the baggage. I need to lose all of this excess that has been holding me down for so long. Things are never going to change. Leave the past where it is. The things that made me want to committ suicide 3 years ago will still make me want to committ suicide 3 years from now.
I think that's good for now. It's just good to have them written down, so I'll have something as a reminder.
Y'know, it's not bragging or anything....by my heart is so big that it can hardly fit in my chest. And it's a good thing I realize this. And it's also a good thing that I'm finally starting to realize that not everyone is the same...in fact, most people I know are actually heartless (tragic). I've always known, I think..somewhere, that I have a really big heart, but I think it's about time to stop wasting it on the wrong people. I think that's one of my biggest faults. But I guess someone with such a big heart finds it hard not to love everyone..even the very people that have continually fucked me over. A sad thing, really.
Yesterday I was at work for 4 hours and it felt like an eternity. I fell asleep on my couch at, like, 6:30 and was completely wiped out. No one got any hours this week, but I'm not complaining b/c I'll finally have 13 seconds to sit and take a breath. I actually think I got more hours than most people...3 days. Well, I'm offically on for 2 days, and I'm on-call this afternoon, but I don't think they'll call me in b/c they're having serious scheduling issues. And I hope they don't call me in (even though it would be time and a half!) b/c I want to watch the Pats! I missed Monday's game b/c I had to work. And it's almost playoff time! Once the schedule is set, I'm sure I'll be asking for a few days at Thom Brown ;)...But I'm sure they've already made the schedule for the next 2 months (no lie). Fuckers.
The snow is so pretty. I thought we were only supposed to have flurries, but I think there's a solid 2 inches or so out there and it's still going (it's snowing lightly right now). Last night the flakes were huge and it was so pretty. <3snow<3.
I feel like the winter's almost over, but it just started. blah! Retailers are dragging out the spring stuff. I hope I'll be gone before they do the floor-set at Aero. Although, it would be a lot of money to make! But I'm not exactly up for staying until 7AM. Bogus.
Anywho, I hope everyone had a safe night. And: Happy New Year!! Wishing you all much luck and love for 2006.
So..
1. Stay in shape. I know this is EVERYONE'S New Years resolution, but since I'm already in shape, I think I'd like to keep in up and try not to turn into a disgraceful slob.
2. Stand up for myself. Lately people have been dealing some really low blows, and I'm sick of laughing it off like I don't care...and then laying in bed all night thinking about what I should've said.
3. Stop being so intimidated. I'm intimidated by very few people, but there are a few right now that get me a little on the nervous side, and there's really no need for it at all. Maybe I should be more intimidating myself.
4. Be confident. Easier said than done. But I had an epiphany the other night; for years I let myself be bothered by people who make me feel less than I am, but I realize that I'm actually a much better person than they let me believe myself to be...I'm actually a better person than any of them. Which isn't saying much.
5. Save my money. I have a really bad habit of spending everything I earn, lol. Some things are necessary (like food and bills), but I need to evaluate how much of it is necessary and how much I can live without. I would like to have enough money to invest by the time I graduate. And this is possible.
6. Work harder! I'm smart enough to get all As without cracking the binding on any of my books, but that's not what I want to be about. Last semester I put some actual effort in, and I'd like to put even more in this time around; I don't want to leave a class and say,"Icould've done better". And I'd like to have a 3.6 by the end of Spring semester.
7. Drop the baggage. I need to lose all of this excess that has been holding me down for so long. Things are never going to change. Leave the past where it is. The things that made me want to committ suicide 3 years ago will still make me want to committ suicide 3 years from now.
I think that's good for now. It's just good to have them written down, so I'll have something as a reminder.
Y'know, it's not bragging or anything....by my heart is so big that it can hardly fit in my chest. And it's a good thing I realize this. And it's also a good thing that I'm finally starting to realize that not everyone is the same...in fact, most people I know are actually heartless (tragic). I've always known, I think..somewhere, that I have a really big heart, but I think it's about time to stop wasting it on the wrong people. I think that's one of my biggest faults. But I guess someone with such a big heart finds it hard not to love everyone..even the very people that have continually fucked me over. A sad thing, really.
Yesterday I was at work for 4 hours and it felt like an eternity. I fell asleep on my couch at, like, 6:30 and was completely wiped out. No one got any hours this week, but I'm not complaining b/c I'll finally have 13 seconds to sit and take a breath. I actually think I got more hours than most people...3 days. Well, I'm offically on for 2 days, and I'm on-call this afternoon, but I don't think they'll call me in b/c they're having serious scheduling issues. And I hope they don't call me in (even though it would be time and a half!) b/c I want to watch the Pats! I missed Monday's game b/c I had to work. And it's almost playoff time! Once the schedule is set, I'm sure I'll be asking for a few days at Thom Brown ;)...But I'm sure they've already made the schedule for the next 2 months (no lie). Fuckers.
The snow is so pretty. I thought we were only supposed to have flurries, but I think there's a solid 2 inches or so out there and it's still going (it's snowing lightly right now). Last night the flakes were huge and it was so pretty. <3snow<3.
I feel like the winter's almost over, but it just started. blah! Retailers are dragging out the spring stuff. I hope I'll be gone before they do the floor-set at Aero. Although, it would be a lot of money to make! But I'm not exactly up for staying until 7AM. Bogus.
Anywho, I hope everyone had a safe night. And: Happy New Year!! Wishing you all much luck and love for 2006.