I can Create a Death

[pink_rhythm]

So many times I've given you my heart,
So many times you've given it back broken.
I don't know what I expected,
But it wasn't more pain.
I should have known
You would hurt me again,
Like you always have,
But I hoped the love from years past
Would still be in your heart.
I hoped you would keep
My heart in one piece.
I hoped you would be
Capable of change
When it's clear you are not.

Love is supposed to be gentle and kind;
From you I feel pain and agony.
Maybe you simply hate me
And being with me is
Your chosen method of torture.
You cause me to believe
Everything will be alright
And then you shatter my emotions.
You send them into turmoil
That can never be settled into peace.
Each time is worse than the last.

My life is fading each time you pain me.
Is my death your desire?
If so,
I can create a death in your mind
That will allow me to continue living,
Breathing,
And loving.
Tell me and I will make it happen,
But don't hurt me anymore.

I can barely handle the past with you,
So full of pain,
But you cause me to look back too frequently.
I can't live with this torture.
I won't survive.
It will be my end.
If I continue to allow myself
To be scorched from the inside out.