i think about you when the night is cold and dark
since i got back off holiday i haven't been able to shake off a feeling of depression. i had the best time last week and we had a week of the most gorgeous weather and it sucks coming back to this dull town, back to my dull job and this shitty weather. i also now have a cold just to add to the insult.
im also humongously disappointed that my meeting with the cosmetic surgeon didnt go to plan yesterday. several years ago i used to have flesh tunnels in my ears which i now regret doing and want my holes to go back to normal size. my doctor said there was no way i could have it done unless i had it done privately and paid for it so i arranged to have a consultation at the clinic. what my doctor wasn't able to tell me was that it would cost nearly two grand to have it done. even if i had the money its way too much. so i dont know what to do now. all i can think of doing is emailing some plastic surgeons and seeing if there are any that will do it cheaper. *sigh*
i really miss magaluf. i so want to go and work out there next year. i miss sitting in the bamboo club every night, it was so chilled out. and i miss K, he made me laugh so much, hope he keeps in touch...i even miss sleeping in a room with cat and being woken up by her coughing every morning! haha i even miss that fucking street cleaner! this morning i got woken up by the dustmen and the dustcart sounded just like that stupid tube thing the street cleaner used. i actually thought i was back in magaluf for a minute.
im seriously going to think about working in magaluf next summer. im losing my job in january so i wont have that to worry about and there isnt much to keep me here. i need someone to come with me tho, i hope cat's still up for it. its got to be a million miles better than this place! fucking gay england and its fucking gay cosmetic surgeons and expensive booze!!
*misery misery misery*
im also humongously disappointed that my meeting with the cosmetic surgeon didnt go to plan yesterday. several years ago i used to have flesh tunnels in my ears which i now regret doing and want my holes to go back to normal size. my doctor said there was no way i could have it done unless i had it done privately and paid for it so i arranged to have a consultation at the clinic. what my doctor wasn't able to tell me was that it would cost nearly two grand to have it done. even if i had the money its way too much. so i dont know what to do now. all i can think of doing is emailing some plastic surgeons and seeing if there are any that will do it cheaper. *sigh*
i really miss magaluf. i so want to go and work out there next year. i miss sitting in the bamboo club every night, it was so chilled out. and i miss K, he made me laugh so much, hope he keeps in touch...i even miss sleeping in a room with cat and being woken up by her coughing every morning! haha i even miss that fucking street cleaner! this morning i got woken up by the dustmen and the dustcart sounded just like that stupid tube thing the street cleaner used. i actually thought i was back in magaluf for a minute.
im seriously going to think about working in magaluf next summer. im losing my job in january so i wont have that to worry about and there isnt much to keep me here. i need someone to come with me tho, i hope cat's still up for it. its got to be a million miles better than this place! fucking gay england and its fucking gay cosmetic surgeons and expensive booze!!
*misery misery misery*