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Hey ive not updated in a while :-(. just got a lot on the old mind at the moment .The one person who was my life is now not...thats basically the long and short of it. four months gone together and now hes not here and im like...wit?
i dont know what to do. i get up in the mornings like *mmm...what shall i do today* but i dunno cos i got in a routine and he was in it. this sucks.
and plus ive opened my big mouth to someone who i thought i could trust and now the shit is going to hit the fan. and this person has blew it all out of proportion. I didnt think being a teenager would be this much of a pain in the ass or i wud have just stayed 12 forever. My days are filled with so much confusion as to why things work out the way they do and why people are the way they are. it wasnt as if we were just a couple. It was us and nobody understood us and i liked it that way *carillion*.
But at the end i think we destroyed ourselves by being with each other too much. hardly cared about much else. Tragic really.
Now i really need to concentrate on getting somewhere in life. i need a job.
i really want to go to college but i dont know how to go about it. apparently its piss easy but you know me everythings gotta be complicated lol. Im going up glasgow tonight. (try not to pass high street aye!!!) and im going to try and live it large and not think about the obscenely thinkable. wish me luck xxx
i dont know what to do. i get up in the mornings like *mmm...what shall i do today* but i dunno cos i got in a routine and he was in it. this sucks.
and plus ive opened my big mouth to someone who i thought i could trust and now the shit is going to hit the fan. and this person has blew it all out of proportion. I didnt think being a teenager would be this much of a pain in the ass or i wud have just stayed 12 forever. My days are filled with so much confusion as to why things work out the way they do and why people are the way they are. it wasnt as if we were just a couple. It was us and nobody understood us and i liked it that way *carillion*.
But at the end i think we destroyed ourselves by being with each other too much. hardly cared about much else. Tragic really.
Now i really need to concentrate on getting somewhere in life. i need a job.
i really want to go to college but i dont know how to go about it. apparently its piss easy but you know me everythings gotta be complicated lol. Im going up glasgow tonight. (try not to pass high street aye!!!) and im going to try and live it large and not think about the obscenely thinkable. wish me luck xxx