you know the world won't stop
Ah, Chicago was so much fun....besides being whistled at by an assortment of creepy guys. *shudder* Remind me to never wear a skirt in a big city. Spent a lot of money, came back with great new clothes, and makeup that finally matches my skin tone...no more nasty orange-y make-up for me!! Score. I got the cutest bebe sport outfit that I had to buy with my own money...but I'm absolutely in love with it. It's adorable and hot, et cetera. So Bails and I are are tanning tomorrow after I get off work...uhg. 10:45-3:15...fun fun. I should prolly double check that. Hold on. Yep, I'm right...but at least I get paid on Thursday!! I promised JJ I'd bring him to the pool this week and beat him at the waterslide! Haha, I will too. I feel bad that I couldn't hang out with him tonight, but the train was late getting into town and I was supposed to stop by and see Jayson so...yeah. But Jayson and I only got to talk for a while because his grandparents are in town tonight and tomorrow morning, but Bails suprised me by stopping by and it absolutely made my day! I can't believe I was gone for a day and a half and I missed them so much...how am I going to deal with college? Uhg. But anyways, there are some amusing stories in the survery I filled out that I stole from Michelle, so read it...it'll make you laugh I promise! In fact, 93.6% of people who read this will laugh...well, not really, but I promise. Take my word for it.
B-O-R-E-D...
a n g e r section
do you have a quick temper?: haha, yeah, about that....
what do you do when you're mad?: shake really badly, cry, scream, slam doors
what's the worst thing you've done when you were mad?: ha....umm....last summer I dumped this huge bottle of water over this guy's head and called him a fucking asshole...yeah, kind of soaked him and all he could do was stare at me because no one expects that stuff out of me.
if you can take back time, would you have never done this?: HA! I'm glad I did it...he was an asshole...and I've been so much more confident ever since and I can actually stand up for myself now...so, NO WAY!
ever made anyone cry when you were mad?: yeah...that I kind of regret
ever physically hurt someone when you were mad?: yeah, but my brother started it!!!
do you curse when you're mad?: I try not to, but sometimes it just slips out...that's when you know I'm REALLY mad.
c r y i n g section.
when was the last time you really cried your heart out?: last week sometime would be my guess...when Jayson yelled at me
ever cried yourself to sleep?: oh yeah.
ever cried on your friend's shoulder?: of course
ever cried over the opposite sex?: uh huh.
do you cry when you get an injury?: nope...I'm so glad I was a tomboy when I was little. If you cry, the boys don't let you play, so I learned not to cry.
do certain songs make you cry? OH yeah!
can you make yourself cry?: haha, yes...but shhh, that's a secret...I use that to get out of trouble.
p a i n section.
what's the hardest thing you've ever had to go through?: wow, it's kind of hard to say...there are three things I can think of... 1). my old-best friend's dad dying in a car accident and her pushing me out of her life 2). my other old-best friend's mom dying and her pushing me out of her life as well, or 3). this girl adopting and basically stealing my personality and turning all my old friends against me...yeah, it's been a rough life.
what's the worst thing you've done to yourself?: let people push me around or make me feel less than human...I surprise myself...I can take a lot of shit when it comes down to that, and I guess I really shouldn't.
what's the worst thing you've done to somebody else?: haha, prolly the dumping water thing from above...or when I used to get mad at my mom I'd scream "I wish I was dead!" and slam my door because I knew it would bother her because my uncle killed himself...yeah...I was a mean little kid....shame on me.
ever had a painful break up?: nope
what about the old 'pain for pleasure'?: like being mean because it makes you feel better?...yeah, done it.
do you inflict pain on yourself?: Only by pushing myself too hard in sports to prove to the boys that I can play as well as they can...no, but I know what you mean...used to think about it, never did it.
h a p p y section.
are you normally a happy person?: lately it's been getting better
what can make you happy?: surprises...like randomly showing up at my house to say hi or something...absolutely LOVE that!!
do you wish you were happier?: oh, doesn't everyone?
what makes you the happiest?: that's hard to say...random things I suppose: sometimes it's a smile from Jayson...sometimes it's someone I haven't talked to in a long time calling me out of the blue.
is being happy overrated?: heck no.
what about being with your friends, does that make you happy?: most def.
can music make you happy?: yeah
l o v e section.
how many times have you had your heart broken?: 2
do you still have feelings for any of your old significant others?: yes...sorry, no details for that one.
have you ever loved someone so much, that you'd die for them?: yes
did you ever love a guy, tell them that, and only got 'thanks' as a reply?: no
ever loved someone so much, it hurt and made you cry?: yeah
has anyone besides your friends and family ever said 'i love you' to you?: yeah, best feeling in the entire world!
ever stopped a relationship because they didn't say 'i love you'?: no, but prolly would...depends on the situation I suppose...never been in that particular one, so wouldn't know.
h a t e section.
who do you actually hate?: actually, no one.
ever made a hit list?: NO! haha, that would be scary!
have you ever been on a hit list?: not that I know of...and I hope not, I get along with a lot of people...
are you a mean bully?: of course...JK JK! No!
do you hate any one that breaks your heart?: I WANT to, but no.
do you hate George Bush?: extremely dislike...with a passion...how about that.
s e l f - e s t e e m section.
is your self-esteem extremely low?: nope, it used to be, but that changed after last summer.
do you believe in yourself?: yep yep
when people say they think you are pretty, do you deny you are?: YA, cuz I'm not!
are you one of those idiots that think they are ugly, dumb, and fat?: no...just not pretty. It's weird...I don't think I'm ugly...I just don't find myself attractive either. Huh.
ever wanted to kill yourself because you thought you weren't good enough?: yeah, let's not talk about those times...
are you happy with who you are?: YEP! now I am.
do you wish you can be someone else?: HECK NO!
B-O-R-E-D...
a n g e r section
do you have a quick temper?: haha, yeah, about that....
what do you do when you're mad?: shake really badly, cry, scream, slam doors
what's the worst thing you've done when you were mad?: ha....umm....last summer I dumped this huge bottle of water over this guy's head and called him a fucking asshole...yeah, kind of soaked him and all he could do was stare at me because no one expects that stuff out of me.
if you can take back time, would you have never done this?: HA! I'm glad I did it...he was an asshole...and I've been so much more confident ever since and I can actually stand up for myself now...so, NO WAY!
ever made anyone cry when you were mad?: yeah...that I kind of regret
ever physically hurt someone when you were mad?: yeah, but my brother started it!!!
do you curse when you're mad?: I try not to, but sometimes it just slips out...that's when you know I'm REALLY mad.
c r y i n g section.
when was the last time you really cried your heart out?: last week sometime would be my guess...when Jayson yelled at me
ever cried yourself to sleep?: oh yeah.
ever cried on your friend's shoulder?: of course
ever cried over the opposite sex?: uh huh.
do you cry when you get an injury?: nope...I'm so glad I was a tomboy when I was little. If you cry, the boys don't let you play, so I learned not to cry.
do certain songs make you cry? OH yeah!
can you make yourself cry?: haha, yes...but shhh, that's a secret...I use that to get out of trouble.
p a i n section.
what's the hardest thing you've ever had to go through?: wow, it's kind of hard to say...there are three things I can think of... 1). my old-best friend's dad dying in a car accident and her pushing me out of her life 2). my other old-best friend's mom dying and her pushing me out of her life as well, or 3). this girl adopting and basically stealing my personality and turning all my old friends against me...yeah, it's been a rough life.
what's the worst thing you've done to yourself?: let people push me around or make me feel less than human...I surprise myself...I can take a lot of shit when it comes down to that, and I guess I really shouldn't.
what's the worst thing you've done to somebody else?: haha, prolly the dumping water thing from above...or when I used to get mad at my mom I'd scream "I wish I was dead!" and slam my door because I knew it would bother her because my uncle killed himself...yeah...I was a mean little kid....shame on me.
ever had a painful break up?: nope
what about the old 'pain for pleasure'?: like being mean because it makes you feel better?...yeah, done it.
do you inflict pain on yourself?: Only by pushing myself too hard in sports to prove to the boys that I can play as well as they can...no, but I know what you mean...used to think about it, never did it.
h a p p y section.
are you normally a happy person?: lately it's been getting better
what can make you happy?: surprises...like randomly showing up at my house to say hi or something...absolutely LOVE that!!
do you wish you were happier?: oh, doesn't everyone?
what makes you the happiest?: that's hard to say...random things I suppose: sometimes it's a smile from Jayson...sometimes it's someone I haven't talked to in a long time calling me out of the blue.
is being happy overrated?: heck no.
what about being with your friends, does that make you happy?: most def.
can music make you happy?: yeah
l o v e section.
how many times have you had your heart broken?: 2
do you still have feelings for any of your old significant others?: yes...sorry, no details for that one.
have you ever loved someone so much, that you'd die for them?: yes
did you ever love a guy, tell them that, and only got 'thanks' as a reply?: no
ever loved someone so much, it hurt and made you cry?: yeah
has anyone besides your friends and family ever said 'i love you' to you?: yeah, best feeling in the entire world!
ever stopped a relationship because they didn't say 'i love you'?: no, but prolly would...depends on the situation I suppose...never been in that particular one, so wouldn't know.
h a t e section.
who do you actually hate?: actually, no one.
ever made a hit list?: NO! haha, that would be scary!
have you ever been on a hit list?: not that I know of...and I hope not, I get along with a lot of people...
are you a mean bully?: of course...JK JK! No!
do you hate any one that breaks your heart?: I WANT to, but no.
do you hate George Bush?: extremely dislike...with a passion...how about that.
s e l f - e s t e e m section.
is your self-esteem extremely low?: nope, it used to be, but that changed after last summer.
do you believe in yourself?: yep yep
when people say they think you are pretty, do you deny you are?: YA, cuz I'm not!
are you one of those idiots that think they are ugly, dumb, and fat?: no...just not pretty. It's weird...I don't think I'm ugly...I just don't find myself attractive either. Huh.
ever wanted to kill yourself because you thought you weren't good enough?: yeah, let's not talk about those times...
are you happy with who you are?: YEP! now I am.
do you wish you can be someone else?: HECK NO!