day and night
Whats uuuup.
At work.. once again. So.. mark never mentioned the letter but I know he read it. What a jerk. Whatever I'm over it if he wants to be like that and ignore our issues then fine. But I will bring it up again when the time comes.
So there is 10 days left until the cold concert. Dude! I am SOOO excited. I have been waiting for this opportunity for like I dono 9 or 10 years already. It's crazy that it is actually happening now. So yea.. that's that.
This weekend I get to watch Tre. Last time I ever did was in December. It's weird I was supposed to be his sitter and I only watched him for like.. a week haha. And it took her like 3 or 4 weeks to give me the money for that one week. Yeaaa.. I dono how much she's gonna pay me for this weekend but whatever that's awesome any extra money I can get for stuff is cool with me. Now I have something to do with my weekend.
Soooo... I'm going to try this losing weight thing once again. For the last year and a half I have failed every single time I attempted. And now I am at my highest weight and I hate it. I mean I'm not at 200 or anything so that's good but I definitely can't say I'm ok with where I am at. And I'd rather not mention what I am at the moment cuz it sucks but whatever. So I'm doing it my own way. I want... HOPE.. to be a certain weight by the day we go back home on vacation on June 6th. I have my goals set and now I just need to do whatever it takes to achieve it. There's no excuses.. I try to cover up and say reasons why I can't work out or whatever but in reality there isn't. And I need to own up to that. And my goals may seem unrealistic but like I said I am going to try my damndest to get there or at least in the general area like within 2 or 3 pounds of it. I want to lose 10 by the end of this month. Another 10 by May 15th. And then another 10 from there by June 6th. I mean really that's like I dono 2 weeks in between. It honestly doesn't seem THAT unrealistic to me. That's 5 pounds a week. And actually the last goal for June 6th is like probly 3 weeks. Adrianna has lost probly close to 40 pounds in like.. 3 months or so.. no lie. She works out like at least 4 days a week. It seems like every time I look at her myspace she's going to the gym. Or at the gym or just got back from the gym or something. She's extremely motivated and it's inspiring me so much. And I also just don't want to be embarassed when I see her in June and she's like beautiful and skinny and I'm still a fatass or maybe even fatter then I was last time I saw her. So yea that's what's going on with that. WISH ME LUCK!! REALLY!!
Well the boys should be getting home from school any minute now so I better get off and act like I'm busy. Haha. Ok LATA!