make me feel tiny if it makes you feel tall
a;lksjdlskdjf;lksdflksjf I dont wanna leave tomorrow! its not that I dont enjoy cruises or anything bc I really do. they are fun and it should be even better this time cause I'm eighteen and will be able to gamble and go to the 'adult shows' and go to the topless tanning deck. but its like RIGHT before we all leave for college and I would so much rather be with my friends since I won't be able to see them for at least months if I even do see them again. I hate saying that but I realize that a lot of my friends now are going to change and we will all get new friends and we might not ever see each other again. thats not necessarily a bad thing. its just kinda sad to think about. but I know that all the people that are truly my BEST friends will still keep in touch and I will see them again. and that gives me a little comfort.
but yeah ten days until most of us move in. I'm super excited. like I'm ready to be there now. except for a few things. mostly just people that I'm going to miss. and just a few people. sydney and kevin and derek and kinley and christa and all the usc people. but I know I'll be down there to visit. and then georgina and carolyn and matt and josh and all the people that will still be here in greenville. but its a short drive to clemson so I know I'll see them. but my best friend in the entire world is going to be six hours and a different time zone away from me and neither me or court will have a car. I dont know how we're gonna deal with that. we have separation anxiety when we're apart for like two days, let alone MONTHS. like this didnt seem real until we were talking about it on the car ride to my house (and subsequent hour long driveway conversation) when it just hit me. I've never had to go longer than a week, and even that was rare, without seeing her and having her there whenever I needed her and vice versa. thats all gonna change. but, as we decided, abscense makes the heart grow fonder. so this could be a good thing. not that I could really grow fonder of her but I suppose everything is possible.
on a lighter note, today (or yesterday if you want to get technical) was fun! me and syd and jordan and court drove up to charlotte and went shopping at one of the malls. we all got cute things. and I got steve madden shoes which makes me extremely happy. and I got my lunch for free ; ) and we just had a lot of fun. I love those girls. and then tonight kinley had a little party thing so we could all get together before all the citadel people leave and that was fun. I love all of them. well most of them. all the important ones anyway.
goodness I have a lot going through my mind right now but its late and I have to be up early. wish me luck on my treacherous nine hour car ride with my family. hopefully I'll come back alive. and not sunburnt.
have fun. be safe.
p.s.
Yeah, you're the shit but you won't be it for long
But there's always someone cooler than you..... despite what I've let you think.
p.p.s.
I apologize for the whiny-ness of this post. you know I use lj just to vent :)