Wow

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I can't believe to say that dustin and i broke up.
i am so heartbroken.. it's unbelievable. i didnt see it was coming.
he said he needed some time and space. but all i want is to help him.

i cant stop crying. i broke down so many times. yesterday, today, sunday night.
i broke down even at work. customers asked what was wrong. im just so miserable.
last night i went after work to talk to dustins mom. it made me feel better
cause she said some things that he told her. it made me a little happier.

my birthday is coming up.
its gonna be nothing
im not even looking forward to it.
i cant celebrate it with the one i love.

last night i woke up from a bad dream.
i wanted so bad to call dustin.
i cried for a good hour.
thinking about everything.
i cried dustins name. but i know he wont be able to hear it.
im broken. in so many pieces. i dont have the urge to get up out of bed
or even to go to school.
this is the worst feeling in the whole entire world.
he knows i will be here when he is ready
that i will be waiting with arms open wide.
i miss so much.
i wish i can tell him.