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why is my entire life awkward.
can someone please enlighten me as to WHY
WHY WHY WHYYYYY
i have yet to experience one of those days where i'm like " this was a good day" and then smile to myself when shit gets bad and remember THAT one good day. i remember a BETTER time of my life..nothing to spectacular.
there's about 5 parties going on tonight
all of which i was begged to go to.
am i going.
No. why..who the fuck knows.
probably because im a miserable pile of shit that wants to wallow in her own self pitty at home while smoking fucking newports that by the way..are gone now so that means i get to venture out to the real world yet again and purchase more.
as a baby i must have been exposed to reality much to early because i am by far the most socially unacceptable human being on this planet. besides dailey maybe but thats another story. we're pretty much on the same wave legnth.
whatever wave legnth that might be.
today work blew major horse schlong.
i have to ask this..
is it me
is it fucking me
i wish my question mark key was working but seriously
WHAT AM I DOING WRONG
why is LIFE so fucking hard for me...regular day to day things that everyone else can handle i just cant.
pathetic.
tomorrow ill be chillen at the bottom of a bottle with ryan.
thats what sunday will consist of.
i wish i was in party mode. when am i not in the mood to party.
i must be going crazy, im passing up huge parties with friends and people i just met..
some of my favorite things.
oh wait, i forgot. i don't know how to meet new people anymore. i talk.i smile we get along but i am so closed off to the entire human race and i dont know why. i dont know when this happend but my trust and tolerance level has slowly diminished over the last year or so. i'm rude, im nasty as hell and im awkward..not the good kind of awkward that i usually am. just the overall socially unacceptable kind ..you know what i mean
im just fucked basically
pitty party is now DONE
can someone please enlighten me as to WHY
WHY WHY WHYYYYY
i have yet to experience one of those days where i'm like " this was a good day" and then smile to myself when shit gets bad and remember THAT one good day. i remember a BETTER time of my life..nothing to spectacular.
there's about 5 parties going on tonight
all of which i was begged to go to.
am i going.
No. why..who the fuck knows.
probably because im a miserable pile of shit that wants to wallow in her own self pitty at home while smoking fucking newports that by the way..are gone now so that means i get to venture out to the real world yet again and purchase more.
as a baby i must have been exposed to reality much to early because i am by far the most socially unacceptable human being on this planet. besides dailey maybe but thats another story. we're pretty much on the same wave legnth.
whatever wave legnth that might be.
today work blew major horse schlong.
i have to ask this..
is it me
is it fucking me
i wish my question mark key was working but seriously
WHAT AM I DOING WRONG
why is LIFE so fucking hard for me...regular day to day things that everyone else can handle i just cant.
pathetic.
tomorrow ill be chillen at the bottom of a bottle with ryan.
thats what sunday will consist of.
i wish i was in party mode. when am i not in the mood to party.
i must be going crazy, im passing up huge parties with friends and people i just met..
some of my favorite things.
oh wait, i forgot. i don't know how to meet new people anymore. i talk.i smile we get along but i am so closed off to the entire human race and i dont know why. i dont know when this happend but my trust and tolerance level has slowly diminished over the last year or so. i'm rude, im nasty as hell and im awkward..not the good kind of awkward that i usually am. just the overall socially unacceptable kind ..you know what i mean
im just fucked basically
pitty party is now DONE