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Its amazing how nothing much seems to bother me much anymore.
Its like, taking things the way they come. Expecting the worst and accepting anything else to be a blessing.
I cant really tell if thats good or bad, because while im losing my interest in most stuff, at least i dont feel disappointed or upset anymore when things do not go the way i wanted it to be. Because i do not want anything anymore. Because whatever i want would never end, and i can never get all that i want.
All i've ever really wanted...
The year is old, theres only a little over a day left. Its a conclusion to everything else that has happened this year- with the new year indicating a closure of the past two years of school life properly. I feel sad like i always do at this time of the year, but anyway it still come and goes. New year comes, new things happen, old stuff forgotten. Thats the way life is, fast paced and realistic. We cant always hold on to something forever because everything is impermenant.
I guess i'm becoming really cynical, but then again, thats how life treats everyone.
Everything is part and parcel of what we call life, yes, even my cynicism.
Still, i'll miss everything. If only i could feel a little less acutely.
Its like, taking things the way they come. Expecting the worst and accepting anything else to be a blessing.
I cant really tell if thats good or bad, because while im losing my interest in most stuff, at least i dont feel disappointed or upset anymore when things do not go the way i wanted it to be. Because i do not want anything anymore. Because whatever i want would never end, and i can never get all that i want.
All i've ever really wanted...
The year is old, theres only a little over a day left. Its a conclusion to everything else that has happened this year- with the new year indicating a closure of the past two years of school life properly. I feel sad like i always do at this time of the year, but anyway it still come and goes. New year comes, new things happen, old stuff forgotten. Thats the way life is, fast paced and realistic. We cant always hold on to something forever because everything is impermenant.
I guess i'm becoming really cynical, but then again, thats how life treats everyone.
Everything is part and parcel of what we call life, yes, even my cynicism.
Still, i'll miss everything. If only i could feel a little less acutely.