Waiting for that day...
I can't wait for the day when I wake up and feel nothing for you. This feeling that I have is new, as typically I miss the person whom I gave myself to yet we no longer communicate. But this......this isn't that. I feel......stupid. I feel as if I truly gave myself to someone who didn't deserve it nor appreciate it. I'm resentful which I never really experienced. And it's always like this with you. I allow you to put me here, even when I think I have control...you've always been one step ahead and changed my scenery without me knowing.
I hate that you used me, and called it friendship.
I hate that you lied to me to keep me around and called it caring.
I hate that you told me how you were hurt to cover up your flaws.
I hate that I believed you.
The only person I've ever been blissfully stupid for. The only person whose heart and soul I can never penetrate, knowing this makes me work harder for no result. You will never care for me, you will never want me, you will never love me.
It hurts and I cry because deep inside......I already knew this.
I hate that you used me, and called it friendship.
I hate that you lied to me to keep me around and called it caring.
I hate that you told me how you were hurt to cover up your flaws.
I hate that I believed you.
The only person I've ever been blissfully stupid for. The only person whose heart and soul I can never penetrate, knowing this makes me work harder for no result. You will never care for me, you will never want me, you will never love me.
It hurts and I cry because deep inside......I already knew this.