looking towards the future

[pink_compulsive]

So It's been ages since I wrote anything in my journal. I mostly stopped writing after I switched to myspace simply because I felt like nobody was reading what I wrote, or that nobody cared. Either way it just felt like I was wasting my time, so I stopped

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[pink_compulsive]

it's really crazy. it's so many different types of people from so many different circumstances and walks of life. you have the 16 year old swedish girl and her mom, the 28 year old dyke and her girlfriend, the 22 year old chinese girl from san francisco with here parents, the 65 year old german woman, the 45 year old british woman , the crazy(but beautiful) black girl and her ultra gay husband, the spanish girl who speaks no english, the oodles of thai women who are ultra femme despite gravely male voices, etc.

it's just like, here you go, the full spectrum. Intersex, trans, whathaveyou. if you're in town and you're not thai, and a woman, you're automatically thought to be western, and trans. regardless of whether you are or not. People openly stare and gawk at you. not rudely, just like "huh". And it's like, I walk around, and I just don't give a shit anymore. it's like "whatever". I think when I go home I'll be in alot better of a place than I was before.

I've rarely been around large groups of trans people, specifically large groups of trans women, particularly girls who are, for the most part, my age. I've met so many girls who I have alot in common with. there are like 6 people here who're totally my crew, from survivors to punk kids to gamers.

the expierience alone is totally life changing. it give you alot of perspective on your own shit...