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i pretty much totally miss being 15 years old and not having to live up to scenespectations.
it's not that i'm actively like "well if I do this at this show, everyone will think i am not cool and i will go in the corner and cry," it's turned into a subconscious thing where i've gotten older and i'm like "well that's lame, i'll not do that anymore" and i kind of miss all of the lame stuff i used to do.
i was looking through old LJ entries, of course, and I came across the one from truckstops and statelines where i was completely losing my shit because chad loved the pillow i made him. WHY DON'T I MAKE PRESENTS ANYMORE? that is so cute and i just stopped.
i also stopped making big, epic lj entries after every show recounting every detail of what happened. WHY?! i want to remember all of this :(
it's kind of sad but i do realize that i'm 18 and screaming every time cute boys in the band look at me is no longer an option lol.
oh, oh, cute. another memory from truckstops and statelines...i remember we were all sad because chad powell was all "no meet and greet, trufax guise" and then we made sad puppy faces and he was like "okay, i'm going to make a phonecall, give me 10 minutes" and he was totally sweet action and got us a meet and greet.
AND AND AND i remember it was all awkward in the m&g line because everything was moving sort of slowly and mike carden was like "so what's your favorite TV show?" and i was like "um...it's...okay nevermind, it's too embarassing" and he was like "no, no tell me!" so i told him golden girls and he was like "I LOVE THAT SHOW!" and it was just really precious.
k that's all. i just enjoy memories of cute stuff like that. there is no point to this post.
it's not that i'm actively like "well if I do this at this show, everyone will think i am not cool and i will go in the corner and cry," it's turned into a subconscious thing where i've gotten older and i'm like "well that's lame, i'll not do that anymore" and i kind of miss all of the lame stuff i used to do.
i was looking through old LJ entries, of course, and I came across the one from truckstops and statelines where i was completely losing my shit because chad loved the pillow i made him. WHY DON'T I MAKE PRESENTS ANYMORE? that is so cute and i just stopped.
i also stopped making big, epic lj entries after every show recounting every detail of what happened. WHY?! i want to remember all of this :(
it's kind of sad but i do realize that i'm 18 and screaming every time cute boys in the band look at me is no longer an option lol.
oh, oh, cute. another memory from truckstops and statelines...i remember we were all sad because chad powell was all "no meet and greet, trufax guise" and then we made sad puppy faces and he was like "okay, i'm going to make a phonecall, give me 10 minutes" and he was totally sweet action and got us a meet and greet.
AND AND AND i remember it was all awkward in the m&g line because everything was moving sort of slowly and mike carden was like "so what's your favorite TV show?" and i was like "um...it's...okay nevermind, it's too embarassing" and he was like "no, no tell me!" so i told him golden girls and he was like "I LOVE THAT SHOW!" and it was just really precious.
k that's all. i just enjoy memories of cute stuff like that. there is no point to this post.