I miss you love
I did everything for you.
Lately I've found myself looking through all my old pictures and listening to my old songs. So many different memories all flooding back at once. It's scary how much has changed over the years. Friends lost, friends gained. Losing someone I loved dearly, losing relatives and gaining some too. Babies, death, you name it, it's happened. Now some change is good, but a lot of the changes I've witnessed haven't been so good. A lot have been terrible, spilling pain so horrible it should have killed me. I don't understand how people can deal with change so easily when, inside I feel like a little girl lost in a great big world with no relief in sight.
The thing that shocked me the most is how many people I thought would be with me forever are gone now. People I looked to for support and advice. For comfort and a laugh. They're gone. I guess that's just how things happen. Obviously there are bigger plans in store for me and some people or situations just didn't work. We just didn't fit with each other lives and we'll all be happier without each other I guess.
I wish there was a cure for heartache. I feel like I'm stretched too thin. Like over the past while I've put so much of myself in different places, trying to keep him happy, trying to keep friends happy, trying to keep family happy. I think this summer I just gave up on everything and didn't care what I did anymore. I was fed up. I just did what I felt like doing at the time. Now the summer did give me lots of fun memories but to tell you the truth I think this was the worst summer of my life. Too much bad to out-weigh the good.
Now the resolution to my little rant? I don't know yet. I'll have to see what happens next. I think I need to make some drastic changes though. I wonder if I'll make it.
lord lord mother, we're all losing love
Lately I've found myself looking through all my old pictures and listening to my old songs. So many different memories all flooding back at once. It's scary how much has changed over the years. Friends lost, friends gained. Losing someone I loved dearly, losing relatives and gaining some too. Babies, death, you name it, it's happened. Now some change is good, but a lot of the changes I've witnessed haven't been so good. A lot have been terrible, spilling pain so horrible it should have killed me. I don't understand how people can deal with change so easily when, inside I feel like a little girl lost in a great big world with no relief in sight.
The thing that shocked me the most is how many people I thought would be with me forever are gone now. People I looked to for support and advice. For comfort and a laugh. They're gone. I guess that's just how things happen. Obviously there are bigger plans in store for me and some people or situations just didn't work. We just didn't fit with each other lives and we'll all be happier without each other I guess.
I wish there was a cure for heartache. I feel like I'm stretched too thin. Like over the past while I've put so much of myself in different places, trying to keep him happy, trying to keep friends happy, trying to keep family happy. I think this summer I just gave up on everything and didn't care what I did anymore. I was fed up. I just did what I felt like doing at the time. Now the summer did give me lots of fun memories but to tell you the truth I think this was the worst summer of my life. Too much bad to out-weigh the good.
Now the resolution to my little rant? I don't know yet. I'll have to see what happens next. I think I need to make some drastic changes though. I wonder if I'll make it.
lord lord mother, we're all losing love