What is love?
I've decided that i dont think i ever want to fall in love again and that i think i'm also a bit scared of doing so. Yeah its great and you feel great and its all 'oh i'm so happy i'm on top of the world' like but when its over or ends theres nothing like the pain and saddness that it brings to ypur heart. I'm just really worried that i'm going to end up messing things up and not being able to give someone the love that i want to and that they deserve because i'm too afraid of getting hurt or let down. I always end up shying away from the people that i like the most because of this and its really starting to get on my nerves. Confidence is a real must in the world of love, sex, guys and girls and its something that i am greatly lacking in and alwayshave been. I'm trying really hard to invent a new amy, what with the house move and everything this might be just the time to really give it a go, lose all my self doubts and inhibitions and let go for a change. It probably wont happen or work but if i dont try now then i doubt i ever will. I need a night out on the pull, tart myself up, get blindingly drunk and just let my hair down.
I dont want to be scared of falling in love anymore, of generally finding someone to have fun with or of being scared of what might happen.
Its a random post, but hey thats me and its been on my mind a lot lately so its always good to write these things down in order to get more perspective on them.
I just need to not fall for people so hard and easily and then make a fool of myself to them by doing or saying something totally stupid.
I need to order my bed as at this rate i'm going to be sleeping on the floor until christmas, at least i've had a couple of offers of blow up airbeds and mattresses, my friends are the best!!
I dont want to be scared of falling in love anymore, of generally finding someone to have fun with or of being scared of what might happen.
Its a random post, but hey thats me and its been on my mind a lot lately so its always good to write these things down in order to get more perspective on them.
I just need to not fall for people so hard and easily and then make a fool of myself to them by doing or saying something totally stupid.
I need to order my bed as at this rate i'm going to be sleeping on the floor until christmas, at least i've had a couple of offers of blow up airbeds and mattresses, my friends are the best!!