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so its been a really long time since ive used this. here goes...
things have been a bit hectic the past month or so. dee moved out, which was deffinitly for the better. em and brett moved in. we re-painted, or actually they did, ive learned i can only paint when things are really bad in my life. um, jay and i went up to cortland to visit everyone. it was a lot of fun and we decided that when i finish college were moving away. my friend lisa got engaged and im in her bridal party and she invited jay to come too because of what my parents told her about him hahaa. werddd. its in like anohter year but im still excited, ive known her all my life so im really happy for her, shes basically my older sister.
um, what else, o school. i changed my major because ive realized that art history fucking blows. its the same fucking paintings all the goddamn time. UGH i can rant and rave about this forever. dont get me wrong i LOVE art but not to the extent that i have to learn about it, i like mystery and figuring out things on my own, i have when teachers preach to me about shit. and i swear to god if i have to see another procession/coronation of the virgin im going to scream. the subject matter is all catholic and as much as i lov elearning about religion it gets really monotonous. my african art class on the other hand fucking rocks. its way more interesting then i thought it would be. so what started most of this was when i researched jobs when i get my bacholors and jobs suck for art history i have to like devote my life to it and shit an di dont want to put things on hold in my life i dont want to have to go to a PHD level just so i can make money. fuck that. dont get me wrong, my used to be life goal was to get my PHD in art history at columbia but i guess that all went down the tubes, i just dont want it, i dont want to do something that im not going to be happy with. i mean its my life for crying out loud. so i switched to what has always interested me, which i should have stuck with, but im stupid, i switched to sociology so i can concentrate in criminology. im so much happier and if i do all the classes i say im going to do overthe summer ill graduate in the fall. wtf? graduate from college. my god. who wouldve thought. i want it more then anything i want to do it, then get my masters and be gone, hopefully.
jay and i have been looking for houses for next year. yayyy. we want one with a pool so we can have a trampolene too so that can be used to jump from roof to tramp. to pool. lmao he told my mom that and she just laughed. o and hes building a skate thing in her basement because wtf are my parents going ot use it for? so he decided to take it over, and hse hasent complained.
what elseee? my life has honestly been going really well. like i really cant complain about much. its going to get warmer and it turned to spring, which made me really happy. spring makes me happy warm weather makes me happy KAPRIS make me happy. tank tops make me happy. sun makes me happy. green grass makes me happy. my god i fucking love spring and summer. too bad my summer is going to consist of me sitting at stony brook so i can graduate on time or early motherfuckerrrr. it will still be fun anyways. jay & i are trying to convince mom to take us on a cruise hahahah that would be the day!
we got a cat, his name is fendi hes really cute and has ADD to the max. but hes fun and everyone enjoys him.
im fucking hungry. GAHHHHH. i need food. all my summer clothes fit me and they havent for like a year so im really happy. woo. i want TCBY so badly, honestly, when it gets warm im there every goddamn day of my life. its so sad. and yet i stay at a really good weight over the summer even with that. go fucking figure. i just dont care anymore haha.
st. pattis day was really good. we went to a party with the boys & girls out east and it was a lot of fun. mm yes. i like the people who we hang out with. my life is just good. like im finally in a happy place. imjust happy about everything. i cut out the people who lie and disrespect me and its made a world of difference. i dont like bringing up anything in the past, even though jay and i do talk about things, but like nothing bothers me anymore. its nice to have a clean head & relax. lauren and i have been talking more which is really nice. i love that girl i always have. shes my lauren 1 mm yes you will not replace her.
our tv is broken and i guess thats why im writing in this. jay is sleeping and my mom has yet to clal me back im all dressed and showered haha and im fucking bored because brett broke the tv when trying to fix it so the othernite jay and i went back to his apt just to watch the end of mythbusters haha. it was nice. UGH MOM CALLM EBACKKKK so i can wake up jay and we can come over and you can feed us and we can go looking at houses. comeonnnnnn. :) hahhaa im such a loser
this entry was wayyy to long. im going to get turkey and cheese and eat them seperatly. and im going to kill the workers upstairs while im at it because they are making way to much noise.
things have been a bit hectic the past month or so. dee moved out, which was deffinitly for the better. em and brett moved in. we re-painted, or actually they did, ive learned i can only paint when things are really bad in my life. um, jay and i went up to cortland to visit everyone. it was a lot of fun and we decided that when i finish college were moving away. my friend lisa got engaged and im in her bridal party and she invited jay to come too because of what my parents told her about him hahaa. werddd. its in like anohter year but im still excited, ive known her all my life so im really happy for her, shes basically my older sister.
um, what else, o school. i changed my major because ive realized that art history fucking blows. its the same fucking paintings all the goddamn time. UGH i can rant and rave about this forever. dont get me wrong i LOVE art but not to the extent that i have to learn about it, i like mystery and figuring out things on my own, i have when teachers preach to me about shit. and i swear to god if i have to see another procession/coronation of the virgin im going to scream. the subject matter is all catholic and as much as i lov elearning about religion it gets really monotonous. my african art class on the other hand fucking rocks. its way more interesting then i thought it would be. so what started most of this was when i researched jobs when i get my bacholors and jobs suck for art history i have to like devote my life to it and shit an di dont want to put things on hold in my life i dont want to have to go to a PHD level just so i can make money. fuck that. dont get me wrong, my used to be life goal was to get my PHD in art history at columbia but i guess that all went down the tubes, i just dont want it, i dont want to do something that im not going to be happy with. i mean its my life for crying out loud. so i switched to what has always interested me, which i should have stuck with, but im stupid, i switched to sociology so i can concentrate in criminology. im so much happier and if i do all the classes i say im going to do overthe summer ill graduate in the fall. wtf? graduate from college. my god. who wouldve thought. i want it more then anything i want to do it, then get my masters and be gone, hopefully.
jay and i have been looking for houses for next year. yayyy. we want one with a pool so we can have a trampolene too so that can be used to jump from roof to tramp. to pool. lmao he told my mom that and she just laughed. o and hes building a skate thing in her basement because wtf are my parents going ot use it for? so he decided to take it over, and hse hasent complained.
what elseee? my life has honestly been going really well. like i really cant complain about much. its going to get warmer and it turned to spring, which made me really happy. spring makes me happy warm weather makes me happy KAPRIS make me happy. tank tops make me happy. sun makes me happy. green grass makes me happy. my god i fucking love spring and summer. too bad my summer is going to consist of me sitting at stony brook so i can graduate on time or early motherfuckerrrr. it will still be fun anyways. jay & i are trying to convince mom to take us on a cruise hahahah that would be the day!
we got a cat, his name is fendi hes really cute and has ADD to the max. but hes fun and everyone enjoys him.
im fucking hungry. GAHHHHH. i need food. all my summer clothes fit me and they havent for like a year so im really happy. woo. i want TCBY so badly, honestly, when it gets warm im there every goddamn day of my life. its so sad. and yet i stay at a really good weight over the summer even with that. go fucking figure. i just dont care anymore haha.
st. pattis day was really good. we went to a party with the boys & girls out east and it was a lot of fun. mm yes. i like the people who we hang out with. my life is just good. like im finally in a happy place. imjust happy about everything. i cut out the people who lie and disrespect me and its made a world of difference. i dont like bringing up anything in the past, even though jay and i do talk about things, but like nothing bothers me anymore. its nice to have a clean head & relax. lauren and i have been talking more which is really nice. i love that girl i always have. shes my lauren 1 mm yes you will not replace her.
our tv is broken and i guess thats why im writing in this. jay is sleeping and my mom has yet to clal me back im all dressed and showered haha and im fucking bored because brett broke the tv when trying to fix it so the othernite jay and i went back to his apt just to watch the end of mythbusters haha. it was nice. UGH MOM CALLM EBACKKKK so i can wake up jay and we can come over and you can feed us and we can go looking at houses. comeonnnnnn. :) hahhaa im such a loser
this entry was wayyy to long. im going to get turkey and cheese and eat them seperatly. and im going to kill the workers upstairs while im at it because they are making way to much noise.