Yeah, I'll stop or start my heart if you asked me to.
So I am pretty obsessed with the song "Silhouettes" by Swimming with Dolphins. You should definitely check it out.
Uh. I've decided that I reeeeeally want to go to Cornell or Columbia after TAMS. I've thought about it and honestly, I don't give a frack if I have to repeat classes. I just want to go because the schools are in New York and that place is bustling with life and while I love Texas, I want to toss myself into a world of adventure and blindly figure out wtf is going on. Also, I sort of want to go just for the vanity factor. There's nothing shameful about staying in Texas and going to an okay college, but that does not mean that I do not want to go to big places...sorry about the double negative, there. I'll feel really proud of myself when my relatives ask me "So where are you going to school now?" and I answer their question with an Ivy League university. My entire Asian life has been nothing but me walking benath a vault of expectations glittering above and I'm starting to feel really good about myself because I've finally reached that point where I'm busting my fist through the vault because I'm the mother-effing Man of Steel! I can finally breathe my own air and be my own person because my parents are happy and they're proud (even though they've always been proud of me).
Also, it's New York!!!
But if New York doesn't work out, California isn't too shabby of a place either. Mmm UC Berkeley, UCLA, and UC San Diego...so tasty!
But yeah. It's really sad, but I can't get my mind off college lately. I think it's the senioritis kicking in prematurely. When I think about it, my senior year at TAMS isn't going to matter that much because when I start mailing in my college applications and transcripts, the universities aren't going to get any of my senior grades. Everything I've accomplished up until this point is pretty much going to determine those acceptance/deferral letters. With a .01 GPA boost from my summer research, my (hopefully higher) SATs this fall, and my Subject Tests, I'm pretty much done. Isn't that crazy?
Anyways. Listen to Silhouettes. It's so pretty.
Uh. I've decided that I reeeeeally want to go to Cornell or Columbia after TAMS. I've thought about it and honestly, I don't give a frack if I have to repeat classes. I just want to go because the schools are in New York and that place is bustling with life and while I love Texas, I want to toss myself into a world of adventure and blindly figure out wtf is going on. Also, I sort of want to go just for the vanity factor. There's nothing shameful about staying in Texas and going to an okay college, but that does not mean that I do not want to go to big places...sorry about the double negative, there. I'll feel really proud of myself when my relatives ask me "So where are you going to school now?" and I answer their question with an Ivy League university. My entire Asian life has been nothing but me walking benath a vault of expectations glittering above and I'm starting to feel really good about myself because I've finally reached that point where I'm busting my fist through the vault because I'm the mother-effing Man of Steel! I can finally breathe my own air and be my own person because my parents are happy and they're proud (even though they've always been proud of me).
Also, it's New York!!!
But if New York doesn't work out, California isn't too shabby of a place either. Mmm UC Berkeley, UCLA, and UC San Diego...so tasty!
But yeah. It's really sad, but I can't get my mind off college lately. I think it's the senioritis kicking in prematurely. When I think about it, my senior year at TAMS isn't going to matter that much because when I start mailing in my college applications and transcripts, the universities aren't going to get any of my senior grades. Everything I've accomplished up until this point is pretty much going to determine those acceptance/deferral letters. With a .01 GPA boost from my summer research, my (hopefully higher) SATs this fall, and my Subject Tests, I'm pretty much done. Isn't that crazy?
Anyways. Listen to Silhouettes. It's so pretty.