[Private] Its harder than it looks
I can see why Yamato was bad at this. Not that I haven't done this more than once...
Returning after long absences just seems to leave a huge whole in relationships. I know that they are completely welcoming, but it always feels like I'm isolated when they start talking about whats occured without me. I just learned about Miyako studying abroad when I visited, and Iori suddenly has a cat. I haven't even seen any of the others yet besides Tai, Miya and Iori so far, I have to wonder what they're up to. Have they heard I'm back?
Anyways, I'm typing this while Taichi is out on one of his runs, he tried to bring me on one before, but I honestly couldn't keep up. I wonder about how he feels about things. I've toyed with my feelings for him before, but never really acted on them. I want to change that. I'm a new person compared to last year, I've seen how things are without the others around clearly. Not like last time when all my thoughts were totally taken up by kaa-san, who thankfully has been making steady recovery. It felt empty. Like I was in a different world compared to here.
Unfortunately, my absense didn't exactly involve school. I was just working with a firm. So I'm officially being held back a year. Not that the year will be that difficult considering that I've been applying most of the knowledge in my classes to my job. Although I'm pretty much unemployed again now that I've left them.
Returning after long absences just seems to leave a huge whole in relationships. I know that they are completely welcoming, but it always feels like I'm isolated when they start talking about whats occured without me. I just learned about Miyako studying abroad when I visited, and Iori suddenly has a cat. I haven't even seen any of the others yet besides Tai, Miya and Iori so far, I have to wonder what they're up to. Have they heard I'm back?
Anyways, I'm typing this while Taichi is out on one of his runs, he tried to bring me on one before, but I honestly couldn't keep up. I wonder about how he feels about things. I've toyed with my feelings for him before, but never really acted on them. I want to change that. I'm a new person compared to last year, I've seen how things are without the others around clearly. Not like last time when all my thoughts were totally taken up by kaa-san, who thankfully has been making steady recovery. It felt empty. Like I was in a different world compared to here.
Unfortunately, my absense didn't exactly involve school. I was just working with a firm. So I'm officially being held back a year. Not that the year will be that difficult considering that I've been applying most of the knowledge in my classes to my job. Although I'm pretty much unemployed again now that I've left them.