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so yesterday and today i spent at bhs as part of an observation i have to do for one of my classes. u know i love working in the elementary schools, sakaii and even woodward. but whenever i come back to bhs i always feel like a high school student. its weird, the kids there seem soo young to me now, but they are also so tall! it was fun to see some old teachers and get to hang out with my mentors again! and i did learn a lot. tonight i had my grandpa over for dinner. i had missed him and this was the first day that we were able to get together. dinner was really nice and we had a nice long chat. he started talking about his days in the navy because i love it when he tells stories and then he got really emotional and started to cry. he is so lonely and doesnt really have anyone to talk to. my heart aches for him because i know how sad he is and i wish there was more i could do. i mean the fact that no one in my dads house has the time to talk to my grandpa or listen to his stories is so infuriating! i mean the man cant go anywhere or do anything and no one will even listen to him reminisce about his past!!! and then to make it worse as i was helping him into the car i told him, listen ill be home in may and then we will have the whole summer to spend together, and we can visit anytime u want. and then dad is like well not all summer because we are going to spokane(for like a weekend)my dad has to do things like this. he cant just let me ever say anything nice to grandpa. that is really one of the basic reasons that we will just never mend fences. i can never forgive him for things like this. i told mom about it later, and she was like u know he is 59 and he isnt going to change. and u know what, she is right. he never will change. and i will never be ok with the person that he is. its weird. no matter how far i get away from that man, whenever i come back here he finds a way back under my skin. okies well enough of a rant. i need to go cool down.