Revived!
Obligatory: I've abandoned LJ, dear LJ I'm sorry, I will be a better Ljer blah blah blah.
Now, on to recent events!
So, I'm in my second term of law school now, here is my synopsis:
First week: I don't know anyone here and I don't know ANYTHING about law.....what am I doing?
next month: this might be okay, I can read cases and shit.
nov-dec: I want to drop out and figure out what I want to do with my life!!
Christmas break: mired in self doubt.
Jan: living in the law show bubble...fun!
End of Jan: FACTUM?!?!?!?!
Now: when did law school get so damn hard? How am I so far behind in EVERYTHING???? I've already spent to much money on this stupid degree to quit now!
And that has been my life.
Living in Edmonton has been okay. It's big, and not really very aesthetically pleasing. Halifax is such a beautiful city and I never realized it because I was so used to it. Edmonton is all recent developments and sprawl. But at least it has some greenspace.
Living "on my own" has been a good experience too, although I don't do any of the awesome hip fun things I thought I'd do. Mostly I just watch movies, go to school and read cases.
School is getting hectic. I've made some good friends (one really good friend and a couple others) but I do miss my home friends. It's a weird feeling, there were a lot of issues going on with home friends in the past yearish or more and I felt so ready to leave and move on. Now I'm nostalgic for undergrad.
The other thing about school is that everyone always looks nice. It's shallow but the girls here are way skinnier on average and always polished. Where are he lulu's? The other assorted sweatpants? The "I had five minutes to shower and get to class" hair? And my look is seriously deficient, I've never really been into clothes, hair, makeup, etc. and it's starting to change, but I'm behind because it's stuff I've only recently started thinking about.
Further, I'm kind of struggling with some academic issues. First, our moot court is coming up, and I'm freaking out about it. Here is a deep dark secret: towards the end of highschool I had a teacher tell me I should never have a career where I had to speak in front of people. Ever. And something about that criticism has always stuck with me no matter how many academic related compliments I received. Which is completely irrational, I know. But I've avoided oral presentations like the plague ever since, and now I have this moot, which is basically like the rest of my career if I litigate. Bah. My partner is a business major and he's promised to give me "business training and confidence tips" lol. We'll see how that goes.
On an excited and happy note I got my summer dream job!!! I'm working in the Health Law Institute as a summer research student starting in May, and I'm super excited about it. So on the one hand, while I'm freaked out about being a horrible, inarticulate lawyer, I'm also starting to feel like my career is starting down the path that I wanted.
In summary law school= mixed feelings.
Now, on to recent events!
So, I'm in my second term of law school now, here is my synopsis:
First week: I don't know anyone here and I don't know ANYTHING about law.....what am I doing?
next month: this might be okay, I can read cases and shit.
nov-dec: I want to drop out and figure out what I want to do with my life!!
Christmas break: mired in self doubt.
Jan: living in the law show bubble...fun!
End of Jan: FACTUM?!?!?!?!
Now: when did law school get so damn hard? How am I so far behind in EVERYTHING???? I've already spent to much money on this stupid degree to quit now!
And that has been my life.
Living in Edmonton has been okay. It's big, and not really very aesthetically pleasing. Halifax is such a beautiful city and I never realized it because I was so used to it. Edmonton is all recent developments and sprawl. But at least it has some greenspace.
Living "on my own" has been a good experience too, although I don't do any of the awesome hip fun things I thought I'd do. Mostly I just watch movies, go to school and read cases.
School is getting hectic. I've made some good friends (one really good friend and a couple others) but I do miss my home friends. It's a weird feeling, there were a lot of issues going on with home friends in the past yearish or more and I felt so ready to leave and move on. Now I'm nostalgic for undergrad.
The other thing about school is that everyone always looks nice. It's shallow but the girls here are way skinnier on average and always polished. Where are he lulu's? The other assorted sweatpants? The "I had five minutes to shower and get to class" hair? And my look is seriously deficient, I've never really been into clothes, hair, makeup, etc. and it's starting to change, but I'm behind because it's stuff I've only recently started thinking about.
Further, I'm kind of struggling with some academic issues. First, our moot court is coming up, and I'm freaking out about it. Here is a deep dark secret: towards the end of highschool I had a teacher tell me I should never have a career where I had to speak in front of people. Ever. And something about that criticism has always stuck with me no matter how many academic related compliments I received. Which is completely irrational, I know. But I've avoided oral presentations like the plague ever since, and now I have this moot, which is basically like the rest of my career if I litigate. Bah. My partner is a business major and he's promised to give me "business training and confidence tips" lol. We'll see how that goes.
On an excited and happy note I got my summer dream job!!! I'm working in the Health Law Institute as a summer research student starting in May, and I'm super excited about it. So on the one hand, while I'm freaked out about being a horrible, inarticulate lawyer, I'm also starting to feel like my career is starting down the path that I wanted.
In summary law school= mixed feelings.